2nd ICSI cycle failed

[EatPrayLive]

hi everyone,

I am feeling absolutely devastated.i had my egg collection yesterday and 4 eggs were extracted.

Today I got a call from the clinic that out of 4 , 2 eggs were not mature and the other two did not fertilise.

It was my second ICSI cycle, first one being in October last year.I am 44, low AMH but had good response to medicines. Took all the right supplements, acupuncture session before the collection but such a bad failure.

I just can’t stop thinking about it and crying since morning. Feels like my body has failed me.

Sorry for such a long sad post, need a venting out.

🥺🥺

[Rjfguitfg]

I'm so sorry to hear this. Holding you in my heart.

[EatPrayLive in reply to Rjfguitfg]

Thank you

[Mrs_MT]

so sorry to hear this eatpraylive. Look after yourself x

[EatPrayLive in reply to Mrs_MT]

Yes.. thank you for your support

[Anonymou5]

Hi Eatpreylive,

I’m so sorry to hear this, I had my lowest egg collection this cycle and I was so disappointed. I had done thrown everything into this round. It’s hard, but be kind to yourself xx

[EatPrayLive in reply to Anonymou5]

So sorry to hear about you and thank you for your support 🙏

[Christianbaby]

Sorry to hear this. Hope you feel better soon. x

[EatPrayLive in reply to Christianbaby]

Thank you x

[Electro2023]

I am very sorry to hear this. Stay strong. Check with your clinic what can be improved and what other options can suggest. Don't give up if you have the strengths and the resources to deal with it. It may help planning what to do next already. It's a painful and draining journey. Sending you big hugs.

[EatPrayLive in reply to Electro2023]

Thank you so much for your message,My consultant has asked to wait until my next period and then probably can sit together and discuss further plan.xx

[Twiglet2]

I’m so so sorry 😢 xx

[EatPrayLive in reply to Twiglet2]

Thank you so much xx

[AJKP]

Sorry to hear this, it feels such a loss doesn't it. Im 42 and have had similar experiences, especially hating my body and blaming my eggs... but it could've been sperm quality as well as a factor. I found i needed to take time to go through all the feelings then I'd come up with a new plan to refocus me. Sending big hugs 🤗

[EatPrayLive in reply to AJKP]

Yes , so sorry to hear about your experience as well, it was really bad yesterday, feels like you have lost a child ☹️

This was second fresh ICSi cycle in a span of 6 months but could not delay because of age factor.

Thank you for your advice..I would take time and see what all can be done next.sending you a hugs too and best wishes xx

[Foxglove_daffodil]

I’m so sorry. Sending you love and strength. Be really kind to yourself and give yourself the space to grieve and feel. You’ll get through this ❤️ xx

[EatPrayLive in reply to Foxglove_daffodil]

Thank you so much for your support.. you all are so amazing here..xx

[Xmishell37]

Hey, sending u lots of love and strength ❣️ were u taking dhea (50mg) and coq10 (600mg per day)? This is what my friend did and got very good quality eggs (only 4), whereas i got 20 and only 3 embryos (2 transfers have failed so far), the disappointment is soul destroying but I hope u find the strength to carry on xx

[EatPrayLive in reply to Xmishell37]

Hi,

thank you so much for your supportive message.

I was not taking any dhea, but coq10- 400 per day, prenatals, vitamin D etc also had acupuncture a day before the collection.

I am in my 40s , so very confused as in the last cycle in October 2023, got 3 eggs- all mature- all fertilised, had day 3 transfer of one embryo with not frozen or blasto, got a period on 6 th day after transfer.I didn’t get acupuncture or ubiquinol before that cycle.So don’t know how nature works.

Wishing you all the very best too xx

[Xmishell37 in reply to EatPrayLive]

There doesn't seem to be an explanation for lots of things in this process ❣️ let yourself grieve and try again if you feel up to it, its the hardest thing ever to keep getting knocked down and continually pick yourself back up ⭐ xx

[EatPrayLive in reply to Xmishell37]

Yes.. you are right.. thank you so much

[Nabsal]

I am so sorry to hear this. Please change diet before go for next cycle

[EatPrayLive in reply to Nabsal]

Thank you so much for your support, can you please give tips on diet.

I have 30 BMI , low AMH and have stress issues as well.

Xx

[Candlewax3]

We had 6 failed rounds so I know exactly how u feel! Give yourself time to grieve the loss of this cycle, then when you feel up to it make a plan with ur consultant on what you can do different going forwards and put your energy into that. The only thing that got me through was the hope of something better next time. I know it feels soul destroying at the moment though 💔 thoughts are with u x

[EatPrayLive in reply to Candlewax3]

Thank you so much for your kindness and so sorry for you as well.

I will definitely take your advice and take some time. And you are absolutely correct on how it feels.

Wish you all the very best too for future xx

[PeppyMiller]

I'm so sorry you're going through this, it's heartbreaking when you get news like that after putting so much effort into it. Like everyone else said, be kind to yourself, cry all you need to cry and move forward when you feel you're strong enough. Hope your partner, friends or family are there to support you, we're here for you too x

[EatPrayLive in reply to PeppyMiller]

Ahh you make me cry.

Thank you dear for all your kind words and support.lots of love and best wishes to you and everyone here

[Nabsal]

please start read the book it’s start with egg by rabbica fat 3rd edition you can order from Amazon and follow it accordingly

[EatPrayLive in reply to Nabsal]

Thank you .. sure I will x