Never have I ever … and neither has anyone else 😳 *sensitive pic for some (( my pic got removed as was “offensive” to some ))

[Corchi]

many of you know my last story and post on here. I last miscarried on the 22 nd July. I was 13 weeks. I gave birth to her on the floor in a cold hospital room as she just gushed out. I had a d&c after I fainted not that there was anything to come out .. or was there? I remember when I did hcg back in Aril and the results were exceptionally high to the point where doc and lab thought I had twins. When I went in there was one heartbeat not two. Fast forward to 2 weeks ago. I woke up on a Saturday morning and went for a pee and suddenly this came out. See picture (I apologize for the weirdness of this pic believe me no one is more weirded out than me) I washed it, put it in fridge and gave it to the pathologist who had done the autopsy on my last baby I lost. She is currently in midst of doing biopsy as I wait with bated breath.

Somebody tell me this DOESNT look like a tiny fetus in a sac around 4-5 weeks (I presume the twin of my baby I lost) Somebody tell me I’m wrong except that it’s exactly what it looks like and logically what the hell else could it possible be?

there is no way I got pregnant again, have not had hardly any sex and when did was super careful plus I have had a period every month since then.

Then my mind goes in to serious overload and say? Did this baby cause an infection as was in there so long and kill off the other perfectly healthy baby? My endometrium just got take for biopsy and initial stage says high lymphocytes which basically means infection.

Please someone give me input … I’m going crazy here.

[Hopewhite]

Omg Corchi, I’m so sorry that you’re going through this after all that you have been through already! I hope you are finding the strength needed and have good support around you xx

This must have been a shock! It definitely looks like a sac and embryo to me, I don’t have personal experience (had MMC but 1 embryo) but did read other ladies writing about a twin being reabsorbed my the body after failing to implant and other twin not being affected by it. You mentioned you had D&C, so probably it’s sadly another separate MC? I hope the doctors help you to explain this, please be kind to yourself MC is a very tough experience to go through, focus on your recovery and hopefully your body and heart will heal soon , sending you a big hug xx

[Corchi in reply to Hopewhite]

It’s not another miscarriage . I didn’t get pregnant again after this last miscarriage. I had a d&C but maybe he didn’t clean me out properly ? See it? I really don’t know but thank you for your detailed answer appreciate it so

[Hopewhite in reply to Corchi]

omg ! This is a true nightmare I’m so sorry that this is happening to you, yes probably they missed it , I think it’s cruel that they just let us waiting to do a pregnancy test to confirm it’s all gone. I had medical management for the MMC and the tablets didn’t fully work , so 2 weeks after I went through it all over again. I was so confused that I ask the EPU to do a scan to confirm there was no more tissue retained, it took 1 month to end. Your case sounds like that this was probably your body finishing the process too. I’m sorry that they didn’t detect this sooner and you had to go through it again xx

[Anxiousintrovert]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this, and yes, I also think you’re right..

[Tir-26]

I’m so sorry what your experiencing 💔

One of my MCs was missed and I had a high HCG for a number of weeks but on scan some tissue remained in my uterus.

In my experience I found it comforting to think about it in a different way, that my body was holding on tightly to my much loved baby, it didn’t want to let go.

Look after yourself x

[Corchi in reply to Tir-26]

that’s a nice way to look at it 😢

[Fruitandflowers]

This sounds horrific and traumatic, and I'm so sorry you're still going through this. It's a little different but when I had a c-section I was told they clean everything but I never bled, no-one took any notice and only after about 10 weeks, I haemorrhaged due to retained tissue finally being expelled. It looked very similar to your pic, as in pregnancy tissue (although with mine I guess it was placenta, whereas I can see yours also looks like something else). I had a very bad infection from the retained tissue so maybe for you it may be similar in that the infection followed the losses and not the other way around. I hope the lab can give you some answers and maybe closure, but are you also getting some counselling? After what you've been through you may need quite a bit of support and I found talking to someone outside of my friend/family circle, did help me to voice and address what I was really feeling, but it's not for everyone x

[Corchi in reply to Fruitandflowers]

I have had counseling but mostly I gain strength from the two children (miracles clearly) that I have and take my mind off it. 10 years 11 pregnancies, 9 angel babies and two miracles ❤️

[Fruitandflowers in reply to Corchi]

Oh my goodness, you must be such an incredibly strong person. I am so glad you have your two miracles to give comfort through this x

[Corchi in reply to Fruitandflowers]

Thank you for your kind words 🙏🏼 ❤️

[Pocahontas2023]

im so sorry Corchi and it is not weird. Anyone who had a miscarriage (be it on the toilet / on the cold floor etc) had im sure the same question Is this the baby and sac.

Because it is dried out a bit it might look different. I had two around week 6-8 and when i googles people said the color of the sac can be anything from dark red- liver like (sounds crazy yeah)

Did it look more red when you passed it? That would indicate a recent pregnancy?

[Corchi in reply to Pocahontas2023]

No it’s not a recent pregnancy it’s not possible. This if it’s that is from back then and it’s not the baby I lost because I lost a 13 week baby and it all came out placenta and all on hospital floor. I am so confused.

[Pocahontas2023 in reply to Corchi]

Poor poor thing. U are right it is too small for 13 weeks. But still How could have they missed it at d&c. I hope the results come back soon Please update us when you know more. xxx

[Corchi in reply to Pocahontas2023]

Will do it’s the most bizarre thing. Waiting with baited breath xx

[Ivfgotadream]

I’m sorry for your loss

I’m trying to get my head around the timeline but to me your last miscarriage feels like it was too long ago for this to be a twin

To be honest I think this is a deciduous caste - sometimes post miscarriage you can shed your entire uterine lining in one go and it can often be mistaken for for pregnancy x

[Corchi in reply to Ivfgotadream]

you mean you think it’s part of my pregnancy I lost at 13 weeks and the doctor just didn’t clean Em out properly??

[Cinderella5 in reply to Corchi]

No, I don't think that's what is being said here but the explanation of this os.....a decidual cast is when you shed your lining all at once instead of a period.....and I'm not saying this is what has happened. Like I said the histopathologist can determine the tissue down to a tee. Hugs.xxx

[Cinderella5]

Hey lovely, I'm so sorry you are still going through what has been the most awful of times for you and your family. I'm not quite sure what you have passed and I can totally sympathise that it looks like the unthinkable.....however I would hope that after a D &C that wouldnt be the case although I guess never say never. I know you said it can't be another pregnancy....do you know your last period date? The histopathologist is the only one that will know for sure. This truly must put you in a bad place in your head even although you have your beautiful family, I hope you have lots of support sweetheart.xxx

[Corchi in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you so much sweetheart for replying. It’s in the hands of a histopatholigist. Same woman as iaso who did autopsy of last miscarriage. Last periods was 15/8 19/9 17/10 and I miscarried 22/7

Mystery no?

[Cinderella5 in reply to Corchi]

Yes a huge mystery indeed. I'm sure you'll get the answers from the hospital that you need to gain some kind of peace. Massive hugs, I know your kids and your OH are keeping you strong but remember to take some time out for yourself to come to terms with not only this loss but the build up of all your losses too.💔😘😘😘xxx

[DianeArnold]

Hi Corchi. I’m sorry but have had to delete the image , as it has caused offence. Diane

[Corchi in reply to DianeArnold]

It’s caused offense? How so? That’s a pretty strong word to be using for something that has caused me extreme pain. How has my post caused “offense” please kindly let me know

[DianeArnold in reply to Corchi]

Hi Corchi. It was the image some found upsetting. I never set out to upset you, especially at such a tender time, but I am instructed to delete pictures of blood on pads. I hope you’ve been able to show it to your GP or specialist. I am so sorry. Diane

[Corchi in reply to DianeArnold]

Hence why I wrote in the subject sensitive pic. So someone can choose to click on it or not. It’s 2023 and this is a support group. Blood on pads or miscarriages should not be “offensive”

Some people found it upsetting? I wonder how I found it. No worries I now know this is not the place I thought it was. I thought it was a safe space to receive support in these dark times no matter what. I did not offend anyone but speak my truth and what happened to me. Offending is what’s happening right now. Sad.

[Corchi in reply to DianeArnold]

this is a support group is it not?

[Anxiousintrovert]

hi Corchi, did you get the results? Any answers?

[Corchi in reply to Anxiousintrovert]

Today ❤️❤️

[Anxiousintrovert in reply to Corchi]

Keeping you in my thoughts x winding strength and resilience x

[Corchi in reply to Anxiousintrovert]

It was not a fetus. It is what is called a “Degenerated epithelium from vagina” from what I understood in simple terms we all have a epithelium (skin) that covers inside our vagina and sometimes sheds it like a snake sheds its skin and it comes out and re grows itself. Don’t ask I know insane. Also insane it looks exactly like a fetus. Is god playing games with me? 🤷

[Queg]

Hi Corchi, Sorry for everything you've been through and sorry your post got deleted. An image like this can cause hurt to some people on here, but it was crystal clear from your post what this photo was going to be. Anyone who was hurt by it knew what it was going to be and should have known not to click to show the image. That's why images on this forum are hidden. When some people complain all logic goes out the window and nobody else's opinion or what's right counts anymore. You have been through so much and you deserve much better from this forum.

[Corchi in reply to Queg]

Thank you so much for your kind support. The truth is I’m shocked that (apparently) four people complained. That’s why images are hidden and we write “sensitive”

This is a forum to share pain. God know I’ve been though enough to hear something that came out of my body and might be a small fetus twin to my horrific 13 week miscarriage is “offensive”

Thank you for advocating for me p

❤️

[Cinderella5 in reply to Corchi]

Try not to take this too hard lovely, I think that it maybe brings up difficult & painful memories for some ladies. Loss is tricky and each and everyone one of us suffers and survives the best way we can. You are so amazing, your tenacity for your family shines through. You are a true fighter and warrior sweetheart!! Lots of love.xxx

[Corchi in reply to Cinderella5]

Agree that’s why no one should click on pictures that say sensitive if they are triggered. This is a support group for exactly these things.

[Corchi in reply to Cinderella5]

thank you for your kind words. We are all warriors if we’re on here …

[Cinderella5 in reply to Queg]

❤️