I am just venting right now, so sorry if I don't take a breath...
I had my long overdue appointment with our so called 'specialist' today at the so called 'nhs hospital' where everyone with an illness has a right to treatment.
I have been with them since 06 when me and my husband realised we were having issues concieving. I had to wait for tests and at the beginning of 08 had tubal surgery, I was then told to go away and try for a baby because we should be fine, I went back the year after dissapointed as still not conceived.
To cut a long story short, many 6, 7 , 8 monthly appointments later still no joy, and no real progression, eventually I was started on clomiphene, the first round did not work neither did the second, because my BMI too high I could not be referred to assisted conception unit, so a third round of clomiphene was given, Im no doctor but this was over 1 year I was on chlomid and all information says the maximum on them is a year I was on them for 2year with no other suggestions... Anyway jumping to present day, you may have seen my recent post 'just another number'
Well I am no longer a number of my specialist or any infertility specialist.
I was DISCHARGED, because the doctor said and I quote 'there is nothing I can do for you, we have tried everything' I broke down, they have tried nothing, he insists that I must be discharged, not even kept on file because 'he has not been paid the last 5 times he has seen me' how dispicable is that.
I am being told to leave and loose weight then I have to re apply to my doctor to see if they will re reffer me for an ongoing infertility illness that is still effecting me. I wont wake up tomorrow and be better, I never knew the world had stooped so low as to leave an already hopeless and helpless woman and her distraught husband, floundering in the world, with no hope, and no options. It is not that I have not tried to loose weight, but everytime I get within 3kg of the target weight my appointment was moved back or I had a false hope dashed. The stress and depression of infertility are overwhelming as I'm sure you agree. Noone should have to feel the way we do!
I am well and truly left with no options now and I think it stinks!
My only hope it that this does not happen to another couple who are as desperate as us for a child.
Thanks for listening guys
Bye for now
A very tired and lost Saz x