What went wrong ?😔

[Olivia1980xxx]

2day is my OTD which is BFN . Two days early was 2lines ... I all ready call my clinic which I spoke with one of the nurses and had a call from a doctor.

She said to repeat test on Sunday... doctor told me that I haven’t done anything wrong . There is always 50/50 .

They recommend just one to put in because I had positive outcome last time and that was top grade embryo.

We had grade A+ embryo we use embryo glue and single injection to help Lh . I keeps my feet warm ...drunk 3L water a day..trying to relax when I had a chance ....

Now I’m thinking maybe I should go with 2 to put in ? Then I think what if I will loose those 2 ...

Maybe this time that cycle was to much to take on for my body ....

Start on 27jan was longer then should due to my lining was to thick ...due to cyst after being drain refill again when I was on injections...so they drain with EC.

After EC I was in pain for few days ...bloated my stomach muscles hurt ...it wasn’t smooth like last cycle. I gained weight I was craving double amount of sweets then normal... my body change so much. Maybe my body wasn’t ready..maybe need to finally have period after 2 months ...maybe need to take “deep breath “...recover loose all this sweets ... and feel enough good to be ready for next step.

Doctor said that I need 2 bleeding so we can start FET.

I cry all morning ...my hubby is confused and sad 😔..

On top of that my hubby told me that one of his Cusin wife had her first scan 12 weeks ....and there was no heart beat...😔 I feel so sorry for her and I will support her in that hard time ....but there is no one who can do the same for me because no one knows that we go through ivf ...😔😔 I’m sorry for such a long post. Xx

[CatDV]

Olivia, my darling, I’m so so sorry 😢

The second line is still there, I think, just very light.

It was just bad luck, please don’t think you’ve done anything wrong!

It’s crushing after such a promising start.

Sending you all my love x

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to CatDV]

Thank u hun . How r u ? When is first scan ? Xx

[CatDV in reply to Olivia1980xxx]

I am ok lovely, thanks for asking ❤️

Scan booked for next Saturday. So scared...

Hope you are doing a little better, but maybe it’s still too early. Be kind to yourself.

I too didn’t share my journey with anyone, so when things went wrong on my first 3 cycles my hubby’s support was so important . Really hoping that you can too support each other, get through this together and come back even stronger as a couple 😘😘😘

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to CatDV]

That great hun don’t be scared it’s gonna be ok and u will see your little one 🙏

My hubby is really supportive...he is keep calling from work to check how I feel bless him 😔 xx

[Sarah_37]

I’m so sorry to hear this... there’s always lots of what ifs but I’m certain it’s nothing you or anyone has done.

I hope u find some comfort... thinking of u xx

[Lindt83]

I'm so so sorry to hear about this Olivia 😥. I really don't know what to say. I've been thinking about you all day but was too scared to ask. Try and stay positive, you've still got some embies waiting for you when you're ready. Thinking of you xx

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Lindt83]

It’s ok hun 😔 I cry all morning...no much tears left now . I’m gonna finish the progesterone and just do one more test on Sunday...but I don’t know if that change anything.

Hun u gonna be just fine 2morrow 🙏xx

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Lindt83]

Hi hun how r u ? I’m sorry to bother u ...and if u don’t mind me asking ...how did your test went ? I being thinking and looking here to read good news . Xx

[Lindt83 in reply to Olivia1980xxx]

Hi Olivia. No, it's ok. I tested yesterday but I got inconclusive results. Some read positive but two of them had a very very faint line (I might have even imagined it) which looked like a negative to me? The one from the clinic read negative 😔. I'm not sure yet so I'm going to call the clinic tomorrow when they open xx

[Lindt83 in reply to Olivia1980xxx]

How are you feeling? Hope you're starting to feel better? Xx

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Lindt83]

Hi hun I was thinking about u all day yesterday looking forward for good news . If u sow faith line call them 2morrow they may say to test in couple days time . Is strange that I was ahead of u 2days and my OTD was only day before yours. Don’t loose the hope yet hun .

I’m feeling bit better . My hubby meant to go to London with his brother but he decided to stay with me ..so we gonna take us little baby girl to cinema to see Peppapig and go for late lunch . Xx

[Lindt83 in reply to Olivia1980xxx]

Yeah I'll call them tomorrow, so let's see what they say. I'll test again with EMU.

I'm glad you're feeling better and enjoying your time with your hubby and daughter. Hope you had a lovely time today. Where are you from? Xx

[Kitcat12]

Oh no 😞 I'm so sorry darling x

[2-shades-of-hope]

Really sorry to hear this xx

[hannahding]

I am really sorry to hear this. I can understand how hard this all must be for you and your family. This journey at times can be really hard to go through. One has to be confident and strong. I would suggest asking a doctor that is experienced for the suggestion. Its always better to get a second opinion. Just dont lose hope! Sending baby dust your way.

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to hannahding]

Thank u hun . Hard thing is that no one knows what we went through over this 5 years 😔 xx

[Hope76]

Olivia, I still see a faint second line, I was always told a line is a line. My clinic OTD is 15dpt just to be sure. I would test again and I really hope it’s a bit clearer then. Thinking of you x

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Hope76]

Thank u hun . How u holding on ? Xx

[Hope76 in reply to Olivia1980xxx]

Hey am ok time is helping. Feeling bit stronger, hoping to start meds May. We are insisting on gonal f this time 🙏🏻🤞🏼 Thinking of going back to basics, no extra supplements just multi vitamin plus folic acid. I am worried taking dhea and Ubiquinol had a bad affect on me. My FSH is 5.9 and I think you are only supposed to take DHEA if diminished ovarian reserve. Actually maybe Ubiquinol will be worth a shot again ?

It is so hard to know what to do and my clinic will not support their use. All I know is when I got my BFP first time I was unhealthiest ever been and knew nothing.

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Hope76]

Time is what we got left now and hope that will work next time.

We got 4 frostie so I will definitely go for 2 on board...

I said before that this was my last fresh cycle....I cannot go through that process again hun.

I noticed that my body change after having a baby. This round was really tough...took over 2months ...I being bloated I had a cyst which after being drain refill again when I was on injections and again drain on EC. I didn’t felt well after EC .

I need now to putt all sweet in a bin , have my coffee each day , look for some exercises classes twice a week and focus on my little one 2nd birthday In may .

Doctor told me I need to have a 2 bleeding to start FET and last time I had my period 2 months ago ..

Next time I’m not gonna use any extra single injection just without like before... xx

[Hollibob]

I can still see two lines on the tests from today, so I will keep everything crossed x

[Gemz29]

I know exactly how you feel I had this same experience in December, it’s truly heartbreaking... it’s put me off ever testing early again, take some time💕 xx

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Gemz29]

I’m sorry hun to hear that? What is your next step ? Xx

[Gemz29 in reply to Olivia1980xxx]

I was taking clomid, conceived month 1 but it then had an adverse effect on my lining. So I’m not waiting on a laparoscopy and hysterocopy before I start a different medication called letrozole x

[Blondie_81]

I’m so sorry Olivia - there is still a second line some would regard this as a positive if they hadn’t done a test before OTD.. so maybe not all is lost? This is such a cruel unfair process. Thinking of you. I’m not hopeful for my OTD tomorrow had a tiny bit more spotting today 11dp5dt.. take care xx

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Blondie_81]

Hi hun thank u . Don’t worry for 2morrow ...u got double trouble on board 😉 I believe we gonna see BFP 🙏 xx

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Blondie_81]

Hi hun I being thinking of u and looking here to see good news . how your test went ? Xx

[Blondie_81 in reply to Olivia1980xxx]

We got a negative - I knew as had started spotting and then bleeding yesterday so knew before they rang with blood test results. Feeling very sad and just haven’t had the heart to post properly on here yet. Hope you’re ok xx

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Blondie_81]

Oh no hun I’m so sorry 😔 After my negative I was looking forward to hear good news from u . 😔 how u feeling? Xxx

[Binky1983]

Sorry to hear this. X

[Tyeuri]

So sorry. It was a BFN for me today, too. I also have to continue meds and test again on Sunday but have no hope whatsoever. Hugs. Xxxx

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Tyeuri]

I’m really sorry hun 😔 Hopefully we will make it next time 🙏

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Tyeuri]

I don’t have a hope either . My body want to finally bleed...every time I wipe pink is very pink ....😔 Lots of hugs for u to hun xxx

[Hidden]

Was that FMU? I was always told a line is a line.. try again tomorrow or after a 4 hour hold

Crossing everything for you xx

[Cinderella5]

Oh Olivia, bfns are crap....must be even worse to see a positive turn negative! I don't believe for one minute that you've done anything wrong, it's just luck. I've had more bfns than I want to think about but it never gets any easier. Sending hugs.xxx

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank u hun xx

[Ajplus1]

Oh hun I’m so sorry to read this post. Please don’t blame yourself as you said after transfer it’s a 50/50 chance. Take care of yourself and hubby during this time. Sending lots of love and hugs xx

[Novice_knitter]

Hey hun, I’m really sorry the line is changing and so hoping things are better again next time you test.

There’s nothing more you could have done - you’ve done everything you should have. Have everything crossed for you 🙏🙏 xxx

[CardiBaby]

So sorry to hear this. IVF can be so lonely and people just don’t understand unless they have gone through it. You and your hubby must look after each other. Unfortunately IVF is a numbers game, keep going, IT WILL happen for you one day. Recover now and look after yourself xxxx

[Lynnr54]

Sorry to hear this. Chemical pregnancies are awful. You get your hopes built up only to have them crushed. It would be so much easier just to get a BFN. When I had mine my consultant reassured me that it’s nothing that you have done to cause it and there’s nothing you could have done to stop it from happening. Sometimes these things just happen and an embryo isn’t able to develop properly even though it initially implanted. The majority of ladies go on to have successful pregnancies after a chemical pregnancy so take it as a positive sign that you now know you can get pregnant. I know that’s easier said than done at the moment so do take the time to grieve properly and look after yourself x

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Lynnr54]

Thank u hun xx I will start from throwing all sweets in a bin , having my mornings coffees, and doing some exercises...specially to concentrate on my baby girl 2nd birthday coming out in may . Is just sad seeing her laying her head down on my tummy saying...baby mummy....but there is no baby 😔 xx

[Scarlett13]

So sorry to read this Olivia, I hope the line gets stronger but if it doesn’t then I guess it looks like it was a chemical - so maybe the embryo implanted but was not chromosomally right? I’m glad you can go again xxxx

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Scarlett13]

Thank u hun xx