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So tired and p****d off

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I swear bad luck just absolutely follows us. I’m just so tired of it all. The dreaming, the hopes only to get slapped in the face multiple times.

Bad sperm, crap eggs, and now the era has shown I’m pre receptive so not even that works properly. Thought we had 2 embryos left just had a call to say they had re tested one of them and it’s failed the pvg so we have only one left. We are tens of thousands down and have one chance left. If this doesn’t work we are back to square one with no clue where to go next. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Soo many embryos, 6 donor embryos from 2 different batches all good quality 5aa….

4 failed pvg, 1 chemical and 1 left.

I swear you couldn’t write this crap. I can manage to get sh** embryos on my own I don’t need to buy them. It took so long to be ok with moving on to double donor. Now I just feel so meh.

If the transfer in September doesn’t work do I move clinic, get more donor donor embryos, adopt a donor embryo. Or just accept that it doesn’t bloody work and try to move on.

Anyway there’s my moan for the day I can’t even blame the medication coz I’m not on any at the moment I’m just tired of being Aunty xxx

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AuroraXen

Oh Boo. I hear you. That's awful news. I really get where you're coming from - I've always felt with donor eggs there should be a guarantee somehow! As you say, it isn't so easy to come to terms with but when you do I just feel it bloody well SHOULD work, you know?? What does your clinic say? Is that kind of result the norm for them? Sending you lots of love xx

Oh Boo this totally sucks, you are doing brilliantly just not losing the plot altogether!

Try not to worry or what if about what to do next time. Have a good rant etc for a few days and give yourself a break, its been bad news after bad news for you lately and you have every right to feel so meh.

Its about ruddy time your luck changed and I so hope that this special little embryo is the one to fix things for you. Heaps of love and luck xx

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ClaireB24

This is so so crap Boo, I’m so sorry you’re going through so much. It’s a cliche but take it a step at the time, so see how you get on in September before making the next move. I have everything crossed for you that it works and you can get off the rollercoaster xxx

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Joeysjourney

My goodness, you've really had a rough time. I'm so sorry. There are very few words aren't there, but you've already shown phenomenal resilience and I hope you can dig into those reserves again and get that little embie back inside.

Hopefully the era revelation also contributes to the next cycle and it can be the one!

Lots of love

Joey x

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HollyT7

it only takes one ❤️❤️❤️

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MAPB

All I can say is sometimes the more you fail the more you want to continue but the pressure you put on yourself emotionally when you do that could be affecting you physically too. Consider taking a month or two off to give your body and your heart a break. I’m 40 so I know what it feels like when the process is building you up only to smash you down time and time again. When in your mind time is running out in the scheme of things the positive effects of a few months off can outweigh the negatives of the time delay big time

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Bomboncita

Heya! If things don't work with the embryo left, it might be good to change clinics. May I ask in which country are you being treated? There are clinics with good results in Spain, if you are interested. There is still hope!! I'm sending you positive thoughts! 🤗

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Miracle43

I’m so sorry Boo, it’s sh*t. I’m also doing DE and have only 1. Sending you heaps of love and luck xx

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