Trying to be hopeful?

[Hopingforbaby_]

Hi all you beauties!

I’m needing some love right now. I’m currently 5wks3days. I’ve been having some minor brown discharge that has slowly increased in amount over the past week. Today I went to the bathroom and expecting brown I saw bright red blood. I’ve heard so many people say spotting is normal or I heavily bled and my pregnancy turned out fine. I’m so sick of being told it’s fine because I really feel like it’s not. They’ve got me coming in for an ultrasound on Saturday so will have to wait and see.

Of course it’s all terrible but what I’m so fearful of is that the doctor was worried because my embryos were slow growing to begin with. What if they all have chromosomal abnormalities and IVF will never work for us? I could use donor eggs but goodness this cycle almost broke the bank. I’m feeling so much self pity and anger and jealousy right now. I wish I was just a normally fertile person. Sorry please no offence to anyone.

Thanks for the vent session I’m not sure what I’d do without you all.

[Doglover7866]

Hi Hopeful, you are allowed to feel like you do ❤️I had bleeding around the same time. I went to walk-in and they said just to rest and keep an eye on it. It lasted about 3/4 days. They said it could be old blood or irritation from the progesterone pessaries. It’s not over for you, stay strong and rest 🥰🥰🥰🥰🍀🍀🤞🏻

[Twiglet2]

I’m not going to tell you it will be fine as I know you are sick of hearing it but what I will say is this has happened to me once it’s been a chemical pregnancy AND another time my healthy baby boy (from the same round of eggs ) so really in my experience it could go either way but if it did then turn out to be the worst then again in my experience it didn’t mean there was anything wrong with the next embryo we transferred from that round, I know you are probably feeling super anxious and spiralling to the worst not just for this transfer but also the future which I can completely relate too- what helped me in both my scenarios was taking each day at a time whilst preparing for the worst but hoping for the best. Got all my fingers and toes crossed for appointment and sending a big hug xx

[Hopingforbaby_ in reply to Twiglet2]

You’re right I was spiralling yesterday. Some days it’s all just a lot. Thanks for your kind words. I am going to try my best to take it just one day at a time. ♥️

[Twiglet2 in reply to Hopingforbaby_]

Totally and utterly understandable and I’ve been there (and probably will be again!) xx

[DianeArnold]

Hi Hopingforbaby, Could you have an infection? Hopefully that has been checked out. However, as you will have read, many ladies have bleeds and old blood leaks, them carry on to produce their baby. Drink plenty of water and watch out for infection. Thinking of you. Diane

[Hopingforbaby_]

I don’t think so, but I guess it’s a possibility. I won’t see anyone until Saturday when I have the ultrasound done so I’ll ask about this however I also don’t have any symptoms that would indicate an infection. I’ve been getting more fluids into me than ever before so hopefully that will help. Thank you for your kindness. I’ll keep a watch out for this.

[Boo718]

Awww you have every right to feel how you do. This journey is soo difficult. I think if I ever managed to get past the chemical pregnancy stage I’d be too scared to even fart. I can’t imagine there would be much joy until the little one was safely in my arms.you have been through soo much already don’t be to hard on yourself xxx huge hugs to you xxx

[Hopingforbaby_ in reply to Boo718]

Lol thank you for this! I have in fact been scared to fart I love that you put it this way! You said it perfectly. There’s not much joy when it’s all just fear. Thank you ♥️

[Leigh2244]

Hi just wondered how you got on with your scan. I’m having bleeding at the moment. 6 wk today.

[Hopingforbaby_ in reply to Leigh2244]

Hi thanks for asking! I had my first u/s at 6wks on the dot and we saw a heartbeat! They found a minor bleed outside of the gestational sac that no one was worried about. The bright red bleed actually only happened that one time but the brown discharge has pretty well stopped now too. Going on Saturday to have another u/s to see how the heartbeat is doing and if the minor bleed has healed. Hopefully yours is something minor too!