Not great news but trying to remain hopeful

[Janop79]

We had ultrasound scan and consultation this morning. My AMH is still low and the ovary on my right seems to be inactive. On the left I have 4 four follicles. Upset obviously but trying my best to remain calm and not freak out. My boyfriend has been great but apart from his motility needing a slight improvement, all is fine his end. We’re going to try IUI and then IVF if not successful. I just have to hope the quality is good as the numbers are so small. I don’t think it’s really hit me yet so I’m sure the next couple of days are going to be to go tough when it all sinks in.

Would be great to hear from anyone who has been through something similar or to be honest, just some kind words would do. Feeling fragile and close to breaking xx

[JenG1]

Very similar and feels disheartening. My fertility clinic didn’t even suggest IUI just straight to IVF with ICSI initially. In the end ICSI didn’t happen. Don’t think I’ve fully processed it all myself but good luck on your journey! x

[Janop79 in reply to JenG1]

Hi JenG1, thanks for you response. I really appreciate it. I’m sorry to hear that ICSI didn’t work for you. Have you decided what you’re doing next?

Xx

[Aksad123]

Hi.. hope all goes well.

[Janop79 in reply to Aksad123]

Thank you x

[Cinderella5]

Hey, just wanted to wish you well! I hope you managed to enjoy your time away together. At least you have a plan forward now and know what you are dealing with so just go one step at a time and go easy on yourselves. Hugs.xx

[Janop79 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you. You’re always so lovely. Means a lot.

You’re right. It’s good to have a plan. The only think I now have to worry about it now having my tube checked. I’ve never had that done before and the consultant as recommended that before we can go ahead with IUI. My boyfriend also has to make some tweaks to his lifestyle to slightly improve sperm motility but not too concerned about that. Aargh! There’s always something

Hope things are going OK with you? Xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to Janop79]

I'm good thanks! Were just waiting on AF to get started prepping for a FET which should hopefully be mid June so not too long to go now....wishing my life away as usual!😂xx

[Janop79 in reply to Cinderella5]

Keeping everything crossed for you. Really hope this is it!

I know what you mean about wishing your life away. It’s awful isn’t it?

Xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to Janop79]

Thank you....right back at ya! It is pretty crap wishing our lives away....this is our last go's so at least we will know one way or another where we are this year! Cant go on much longer....been doing ivf since April 2016....eeeeek!!🙄xx

[Janop79 in reply to Cinderella5]

Of course. I understand. I really do hope and wish that it works out for you this time. Please keep us updated... well only if you want to of course. I’ll be thinking of you xx

[EmGLA]

This whole process is such a bumpy road! You are definitely not alone! I had a wobble this morning driving to work for no real reason. I don't really feel I have anyone to properly confide in so I definitely rely on this forum!

Its definitely good that you have a plan, that means you have a process to follow. I find it really helpful doing things that distract me but are helping the process- exercising, cooking new healthy recipes, meditation.

You definitely sound like you need a bit of relaxation so why not buy yourself a facemask, stick on a candle and listem to some music, chat to your bf, watch a film or lose yourself in a book.

sending you hugs

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[Janop79 in reply to EmGLA]

Thank you so much for your response! I’m such a mess so you’re right I do need to start finding ways to distract myself more and showing myself a bit more love. My body and me aren’t friends at the moment so I need to work on that

I feel the same as you. No one really to confide in who really understands. My sisters, Mum and BF are great and supportive but they don’t really get it. I feel like I can’t really talk to my friends as they all have kids and 2 of them are currently pregnant. I just feel awkward.

Wishing you all the best. I hope it all works out for you xxx

[EmGLA in reply to Janop79]

If you ever want to chat just drop me a private message xx

[Janop79 in reply to EmGLA]

Thank you so much xx

[Kempton]

Small numbers isn't necessarily a bad thing, as you say, as long as the quality is good. I only had 4 follicles, all contained an egg and I eventually got my little baby through ivf.

Keep yourself as healthy as possible and try not to let the numbers get you down. Wishing you lots of luck.

[Janop79]

Thank you so much. This gives me hope. I’m going to try everything I can to ensure the quality is good and keep hopeful. Thanks again. Hope all is well with you xx