You are all Wonder Woman (sorry for the long post)

[MsLuna]

It’s taken me this long to post after my egg collection on Monday as I don’t think I was prepared for the rollercoaster it has been.

So the drs had down they were hoping for 7-10 eggs as had 10/11 follicles throughout my stims. I responded well to meds etc. I was extremely nervous and anxious and then the nurse couldn’t get my cannula in on either arm. Not a good thing in my frame of mind 🙈 Walked Into the theatre where the doctor was going to try and get it in. The meltdown then came! Burst in to tears and sobbed like a baby. The team were great, comforted me, made me feel better even though I was so embarrassed that I cried! 😕

Then the next emotional breakdown, they only collected 3 eggs…… I tried not to get my hopes up through it all but clearly I had. Then you start thinking what did I do wrong etc

The next day I find out only 2 fertilised and one had done so abnormally. So I was left with 1 egg. Just 1. Of course you guessed it, another meltdown.

Day 3 I get the call to say eggy ( my niece named it) is doing very well and it’s looking positive. So I felt a bit better finally!

Yesterday I got the call to say eggy had made it and was a top quality grade A. Text book blastocyst apparently. So eggy is now in the freezer ready for another day in the future. Finally I had a smile on my face.

IVF is brutal! You can never be prepared for how physically and mentally it breaks you. I’m not saying I walked in so naive but until you actually go through it you can never understand what us ladies put ourselves through. I admire you all for how you deal with this. The ladies that do multiple rounds, I salute you. This one round has broken me and I now try and put the pieces back together.

I will take a break from here now as this cycle was my one chance at this time. Thank you for all of your support and wisdom through this stressful journey. I wish you all so much luck and success on your journeys and sprinkling all of that baby dust your way! Xx

[DG2022]

Best of luck with your grade a frostie when you feel ready. Definitely the best decision to let yourself recover emotionally and physically xx

[MsLuna in reply to DG2022]

Thank you. Got a few things this year I can focus on doing and then will see where I’m at in a years time x

[AuroraXen]

It IS brutal Luna. Don't feel embarrassed about having meltdowns, we all do! The first cycle is very hard as I think we go into this expecting so much more than many of us actually get! I'd read a bunch of things and thought great, I'll probably get around 15 follicles and maybe 12 eggs ... didn't occur to me that these numbers 'the doctor is looking for' are likely for women ten years younger 😳 😆 It's impossible to prepare ourselves for the twists and turns. But look, some women only need 1 go and that frozen embryo might be all you need! I hope so. Good luck for when you're reading to take the next step xx

[MsLuna in reply to AuroraXen]

Yes IVF definitely does make you feel geriatric in your mid-late 30s 🙈 I think it was the clinc seemed quite positive so I went with it! Thank you. I’ve got time to figure it out and who knows, I may even meet someone and be able to try naturally. These things can happen! X

[RedFox23]

We were on roughly the same time line I think - what an emotional rollercoaster.Best of luck for your grade A ❄️ In the future xx

[MsLuna in reply to RedFox23]

Thank you. I hope you achieved what you set out to achieve through your cycle x

[Daffodils140]

It’s so hard and I think most of the time we train ourselves to hold everything in so when it does come out it comes out in a big way! Don’t feel embarrassed for crying, you needed to do that. We are in the situation where we have three Frosties in the freezer and hoping to do a double transfer next month and I’m already worrying if that doesn’t work we are down to one and if that doesn’t work then what?? It’s so easy to spiral but then I have to remind myself that next time could be the time it works. I hope that your little eggy is the one for you! Lots of love xxx