Hello lovely ladies, is been a while since I've posted as I've taken a couple of months out. I wanted to share my latest news with you all.
I had my follow up appt this morning with my consultant. He said that the poor results of my last IVF was my defining line in the sand and that he would not recommend me using my own eggs for IVF again. A combination of my age and poor egg quality means that was the end of the line for me. In my own mind I knew this, but it's so bloody hard to be told that's it. Game over.
I'm trying to remain pragmatic about it as I had already started donor egg treatment in Spain but I have a swell of sadness and pain whirring away inside my chest. I'm trying very hard to not have a meltdown about it and I keep reminding myself that he didn't tell me anything I didn't already know. If I say it, it's my opinion but when he says it it's a fact.
I never thought I'd hear those words. Crushed. I always believed that somehow I would fall pregnant and I need to get my head round the fact that I won't.
But with a very deep breath of composure I need to focus on the future and look to donor eggs as my next path of hope. I am due to go back to Barcelona in July. I'm very afraid that this won't work either but I have to try to remain positive.
I will let you know more news with my July DE treatment closer to the time.
Big hugs to you all 💜 xxx