MMC update (long post sorry)

[FandF2020]

It’s been a few weeks since I was last on here. It’s been three weeks since I was told at my 12 week scan I’d had a mmc and it feels like the longest time of my life.

After my initial appointment at the epu and they told me I had to wait 2 weeks to see if I’d miscarry naturally, I had a lot of stomach cramps the pain was unbearable. I called my gp and the epu and they just said take codeine because I wasn’t bleeding, the cramps lasted 3/4 days and I was unable to get out of bed. I started bleeding but it was very minimal, and the cramps eased off. In this time I’d contacted other hospitals but locally it seems they have the same guidelines due to covid. I also contacted a private hospital to pay for a d&c but they’re so busy I’d have to wait until 19/09, so I waited for my appointment at the epu on Tuesday. They scanned me and said the baby is still there and I’d need to be admitted due to the size, when giving me the medication it cause cause excessive bleeding so they wanted to keep an eye on me. I had to have a covid swab so was told to go back on Thursday and was also told my husband could come in then if there’s a private room available, otherwise I’d be on a ward alone.

I was so anxious and pretty sure that I’d have to do it alone but thankfully I was given a room and my husband was there. It took about 8 hours from when I had the pessaries until I passed my baby and placenta. I have to say all the staff were wonderful, they were all sorry I had to go through it and were very helpful and informative. I had to stay overnight so they could observe me and check bleeding and I went home on Friday afternoon. I was so relieved I didn’t need surgery again like I did for my tfmr.

Yesterday I felt so positive but I think that was relief that I was allowed to go home and start dealing with this, but I’ve woken up this morning really sad. I guess I’ll have days like this, last time I just tried to be happy and I really didn’t acknowledge my grief but this time I won’t let that happen.

I’m sorry for the long post, but I just had to write it down, and tell you all as you’ve been so lovely on my other posts. This community is really so special.

[Infertilemyrtle]

I just wanted to say I am so sorry. I know there are no words in these situations, and we go through the motions because it keeps us going until we have time to really think about what's happened. Am thinking of you and hope that you can take some time out to grieve and recoup XX

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Oh lovely what a hell to go through. Im so sorry. Im glad you werent alone and i that u received all the care u needed but what a sorrow to go through.

Im praying for your recovery. You are strong physically and you will over come this. I pray that mentally you find peace. I think thats the hardest. I wish i could lift the heaviness of your heart which many of us have felt. Sending you many hugs and love. Please take care of yourself ❤️

[Picalilli99]

Bless you. I’m so sorry that you are going through this and that you’ve had such a tough few weeks. I’m glad that the physical side is finally over. I agree it’s important to try to make sure you give yourself the time and space to grieve now. Try to be kind to yourself and hug each other tight. Sending huge healing hugs. Take care lovely xxx

[JeSs8819]

So so sorry to read this. Hope your recovering as well as you can. As everyone says be kind to yourself and try to relax and grieve in the best way you can. You have support chick, use it xx

[JanuaryOrchard]

I just wanted to add a great big hug to those above, and I'm glad you could have the support there from your husband. X

[Positivevibe]

I had to go thru the same and had to manage everything all by myself because I live alone. The first few days are gonna be the toughest. But I kept pulling myself through with the hope that I could

Still try again. Hang in there ! Everything will be okay.