I thought I was doing ok until last night.. our neighbours were in their garden having a drink and invited us for a catch up. We were on our way out but sat down for a quick catch up. They’re a really nice couple who we see now and again but not that often. The guy looked me in the eye and said they had great news to share and said that his wife was pregnant with a little boy. Honestly it stabbed me in the heart so badly I could’ve vomited on the spot….!
It’s not that I’m not happy for them, I genuinely am!! But to see the happiness and pride on his face, I just want that to be my partner so much. It’s such a brutal feeling. We went off to have dinner and I just had to wail in a side street before we went in. I’d held it together and did my best fake smile and congratulated them at the time. My partner said I did an amazing job of covering up how I’m truly feeling.
Sorry for the rant. You guys are probably the only people who would understand why I’m feeling like this. I’m so broken 💔