Too painful to handle

[Titawine]

I'm a type 1 diabetes, when I first get married I thought that managing my diabetes will be my only problem.

Now two years and half after, 2 failed iui, one failed fresh transfer , and too many type diabetes 1 fellows pregnancy announcements.

My diabetes is well managed , but my fertility problems are not clear yet , polypes , cysts... today I feel sad and down, my 33 anniversary was 3 days ago and I cried a lot , I can't handle this situation anymore and I don't know what to do.

[Purpledoggy]

I'm sorry to hear you are going through this. Fertility troubles are so hard to deal with and it makes it so much harder when everyone else seems to have success. Take small comfort in the fact you are 33 and so really do have time on your side when it comes to IVF. Your eggs should be decent quality, even if your AMH is low and you don't make many. There are always going to be really low days on this journey and my only advice is to be very kind to yourself as you are doing the best you can. It is fine to be self-indulgent - watch whatever TV you want, do nice treats like self pamper sessions or whatever it is makes you feel nice. xx

[Titawine in reply to Purpledoggy]

Thank you, I really needed to talk about this as now one beside my husband know about my struggle. It's frustrating when the doctor say that after 35 it will be more difficult, I will do one last transfer with two 3days embryos, if that doesn't work I will do ivf aboard I think about going to Spain

[Purpledoggy in reply to Titawine]

Although it’s ideal to be under 35, loads of women are successful older than this. I got my first ever BFP at 40 and now 13 weeks. Good luck with the next transfer xx

[Lancal]

I’m sorry you’re in pain. Struggling with infertility is just so painful, particularly when nearly everyone else in their early 30s appears to find it so easy. I remember I threw my phone down the stairs when I was 33, because I was struggling so badly with my situation and could not handle seeing another school friend having a baby or one more ‘blessed’ hashtag alongside some motherhood post. I was just so angry and sad.

Hang in there. You will survive this.

Wishing you the best of luck and sending you big well wishes.

[Titawine in reply to Lancal]

Thank you so much , I. So thankful for this community, as it's a taboo to talk about infertility around me and I feel so lonely in this difficult journey

[Lancal in reply to Titawine]

Good luck with your next two embryos. If that is unsuccessful, I think trying in another country where they have better IVF technology would be really worthwhile.

[smarties85]

Having health issues is so hard on your mental and physical health and I find in your 20s and 30s ppl don’t really understand that as a lot of people are fit n healthy so it’s really lonely when it’s not the same for you and you can’t just take your health and fertility for granted.it’s a difficult road but you’ve come to the right place as we all understand ❤️