D12p5dt BFN again

[HemBella]

Well tomorrow is my OTD but I'm on holiday this week and was starting to worry whether I've been pushing myself too much in this heat. So we decided to test this morning to put my mind at ease.

BFN again 😢

Another beautiful hatching PGS tested blastocyst and my body just won't get pregnant.

And I've thrown literally everything at this- intralipids, steroids, inhixia, Lubion etc etc etc.

My body just won't seem to get pregnant.

Will test again tomorrow on OTD but I know the result won't change- and then set about weaning myself off all these meds.

Still have one frozen embryo left that's been PGS tested. But at 42 will need to think carefully about whether to use that or try another round from scratch and bank a few more. But physically and emotionally right now I just don't feel I have the strength to do it from the beginning again.

[XOXO13]

Ow I’m so sorry lovely, I was rooting for you 💔

You’ve shown so much strength already, it’s okay to want to take a break and find yourself and your strength again. It’s in there, and when you’re ready it will see you through.

I know it’s really tough, but I hope you can use your holiday to begin to heal. I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow and hope it does change for you.

Big hugs 💜 xx

[HemBella in reply to XOXO13]

Thank you lovely. I'm not holding out. There wasn't even the faintest of faint lines! But on to silver linings and maybe having that glass of wine on holiday!

Hope you're having a good break in Cornwall too and managed to get your clinic sorted xx

[Greenwhitecar]

So sorry. We had a BFN this morning too. Look after yourself xxx

[HemBella in reply to Greenwhitecar]

I'm so sorry for your BFN too 😢. Xx

[Maui2020]

Hi there, I’m so sorry about your bfn, it really is such a cruel process. I’m 41 and have had an ivf baby at 37, but since have had 7 failed transfers. If I didn’t know better I would feel like my body couldn’t do this and be convinced it wasn’t possible. What I wanted to say is that there is hope and it’s just crap that it can all come down to luck and doing it enough times.

I have 2 poor quality untested embryos in the freezer and had a follow up consultation yesterday, convinced we want to do another fresh. But the Dr even had a small hope for those as was urging us to transfer them first. You have a really good chance for your next transfer, and you know you can produce normals if you want to go a ahead with a fresh.

Just let yourself forget about it for a few days and I’m sure you’ll get a gut feeling over the right thing for you. Sending lots of love 😘😘😘

[HemBella in reply to Maui2020]

Thank you for your message 😘. We need to keep going 🌈 xxx

[Millbanks]

Aw I'm so sorry to hear this. It's so hard when there are no answers. Have you tried an ERA test? Looks like you've covered most other things but maybe your timing is out?Also, there are other immune protocols that you can try - perhaps worth looking in to?

Sending a big hug today xx

[HemBella in reply to Millbanks]

Thanks Millbanks. Yes did the ERA/ EMMA/ ALICE tests too. I need an extra day of progesterone so that was carefully monitored too.

May be time to look at different immune protocols as you say. I'm sure there are still tweaks that can be made

[Ranchu90]

I am so sorry to hear that and indeed you tried everything. When I had my 3rd transfer with also PGS tested embryo and ended in my third chemical my doctor recommended me to try some treatment that they are usually using when they have "special cases", I think it's injections not pills called Granulocyte."Granulocyte-colony stimulating factor (G-CSF) seems to play an important role in the process of embryo implantation and continuation of pregnancy. It has been used during in vitro fertilisation (IVF) treatment for subfertile women with chronically thin endometrium and those with previous multiple IVF failures".

Google a bit about this and discuss with your doctor, I know that not many clinics are using it. I sent an email to a Harvard educated doctor in USA and she told me that she also used them and had success.

In the end we didn't use them but we used steroids and transferred 2 embryos in case my body wanted to reject or attack them. I was also on 2 weeks antibiotics and I had one injection that put me on "menopause" for 3 months. Now we are expecting twins 🤠🤩.

Stay strong my lov 💓😘 we understand your feelings 🤗

[HemBella in reply to Ranchu90]

Thank you, that's interesting. I hadn't heard of that yet- as you know we've thrown everything but the kitchen sink at this. Fortunately my consultant is very open minded so I'll see what I can find out about this.

When you get to this stage you're willing to do anything. But I don't think I'd have any more space for any more injections- I'm literally black and blue all over with this protocol already 😂😂

[Ranchu90 in reply to HemBella]

Perfectly understandable! I was on injections until 16 weeks pregnant 😬😤🥵 Granulocyte you don't need to take every day that is the good part 😉. Anyway see what your doctor has to say about that 🤔 take care of yourself 🤗

[Hidden]

Oh no gutted for you, I was so hoping this was your round, its just so ruddy unfair. Hugest hugs xx

[HemBella in reply to Hidden]

Thank you love. Hope you're doing ok too xxx