I just feel so totally alone and sad. As other older women going through IVF and infertility have been saying on another post, it is just so incredibly isolating. I don't even talk to my family about any of this anymore, let alone friends. I just avoid people.
My husband was doing his usual TWW meltdown last week, and then we managed to have a nice weekend together and I tried to be there for him on father's day. It went well, we had a really nice special day. But then of course this morning he's back to his usual freak-out destructive behavior. I have had to set boundaries with him, and follow through with them. I have said that if he doesn't respect me, if he does certain things that I've said I won't tolerate, that he has to go spend a night somewhere else. So now he's gone, AGAIN, and I just feel absolutely horrible and sad and like I'm made of lead and cement. I managed to get out for a walk this evening, but I'm so gutted that he always makes things bad and hard in the TWW.
I haven't even told friends that I'm going through IVF again. Like I said I just avoid everyone.