Crying today after 3 rounds of ivf

[lex8719]

i cant stop crying, today is 5dpt of 4day embryo. i suddenly feel tired of all this things, the meds, the needles, appointments. for three rounds i feel so exhausted to the point i lost my hope, my faith of this process. i had positve pregnancy test on second ivf but ended misscarriage due to my fault, that is why i immediately go for the third round hoping tobe successful which is my last round as i am out of embryo already. i really miss the chance if this third round wont work. we are financially incapable for the next cycle and it will take year of saving to have egg collection/stimulations. Im in tears of exhaustion and regrets. it seems that im out already as i compared my last cycle and today cycle. i dont know what to think but thats what i feel. i cant tell my husband about my worries as i dont want him to be worried also. i feel comfortable saying tgis to you that im super depressed. i cant help it. your words might be helpful. 😭😢😢

[Icsi_Wincy_Spider]

Awh, stay strong Lex. I know it's not easy but it's not over until that BT! 😘 😘

[lex8719 in reply to Icsi_Wincy_Spider]

thank you! i think i just have my panic attack

[Millbanks]

Hi lovely, you sound very stressed 😔 try not to compare cycles. I know you’ll be looking out for the same signs but each pregnancy can be completely different so just because you had certain symptoms last time doesn’t mean you’ll get them this time. Try and take it one day at a time. You’ve done everything right to get to this point so try to trust your body xx

[Cocuk]

Don’t you worry, everything will be fine. You are not alone.

[lex8719 in reply to Cocuk]

thank i just feel emotional today that it seems this process is unending torture for me. after 3 rounds i got exhausted and unhappy

[Lovemylion]

Aww hunny. It's not over yet for u. Stay hopeful. You've got this 💪 Also you say your miscarriage was your fault?? That's absolutely not true. Nothing you did could have cause your MC. It was just unfortunate and likely to be a chromosome issue. I know it's hard not to blame yourself, I've done that myself.

Wishing u lots of luck 😍 xxx

[lex8719 in reply to Lovemylion]

thank you Lovemylion , it is really my fault. i couldnt discuss what happened but its true. i made a terrible mistake. but it made me realize that baby was not really meant for me.

[Lovemylion in reply to lex8719]

I'm sorry to hear that. Perhaps it might be worth having some counselling to discuss that. Xx

[lex8719 in reply to Lovemylion]

🥺🥺🥺 truly i appreciate this group, as i could tell everything that i couldnt to my husband. im sure he will be worried to me to hear this

[FM91]

Hi lex8719. My heart breaks for you.

You are strong. You are beautiful. And this horrible time will soon pass where you will get the most amazing news u have been craving for and you will forget all your worries.

Its ok to feel how you are feeling. Spend 10 minutes crying (loudly if you want), write on a piece of paper what you want, then write 3 things you are grateful for. It will help you get your mind and thoughts together. Your miscarriage is not your fault lovely. If anything maybe you were saved from a heartache at 12 weeks or 20weeks. There is always a silver lining if you choose to search. We are here for you. Always x

[lex8719 in reply to FM91]

such a beautiful message.