Never ending upset

[elsie15]

Does anyone else just feel that there is never ending bad news. You pull yourself together then all of a sudden, more bad news...

We were supposed to start IVF back in February but due to partners sperm (motility), we had to have a back-up. Anyway, he attended 3 appointments for sperm freeze and was unsuccessful for all three. We were put on a three month break and he was given Impryl on the basis that he would try again- now in a November and still nothing.

I feel numb to it. I don’t know how I’m going to feel if we are told ‘there’s nothing we can do’. We were told that our next step would be surgical retrieval.we are to wait for this, but I’m losing every single bit of hope now and preparing for the news that will be soul destroying. I just feel devastated and feel like no one understands this pain.

[Italy300618]

You poor thing, what an awfully long wait you have had. So sorry, and completely understandable that you feel the upset is never ending. Please dont lose hope, my husband has had success through sperm being surgically removed, and the quality was great. Try not to be too disheartened, as when they retrieve it straight from the testes it hasnt had to travel down the tubes and hopefully they will find good quality motile sperm there. Here if you need to talk xx

[elsie15 in reply to Italy300618]

Thanks for your kind words. I really am trying to be positive. I know we will have to wait a long time for this SSR and I worry about getting my hopes up. His motility is pretty much 0% motile but he has sperm and when they did the dye, it showed it was alive. If you don’t me asking, what was your partner’s issues with his sperm? Xx

[Italy300618 in reply to elsie15]

He has azoospermia caused by being a carrier of the cystic fibrosis gene, so there was completely 0 sperm in his samples, but managed to get it surgically. Best of luck, the waiting is the hardest I know 😔 you'll get there lovely xx

[elsie15 in reply to Italy300618]

Thank you xx

[butterfliez]

Hi it’s so difficult going through fertility issues & all the waiting involved doesn’t help , sorry to hear your going through this but don’t feel defeated just yet , if surgical retrieval is the next step for your partner then this could be the answer, it’s definitely worth a try ,

My partner had really low sperm count & poor motility they basically told us there is 1% chance of natural conception, he did sample after sample for analysis over the course of tests which were no good but he did manage to have a good outcome for the freeze sample this year which we used & managed to fertilise one egg.

We have no experience of surgical retrieval but this may be needed in the next attempt for us, it only takes 1 they say so hopefully this will work for you 🤞 x

[elsie15 in reply to butterfliez]

Thanks for taking the time to comment; it’s nice to know that people can relate! If you don’t me asking, what was the issue with your partner’s sperm? Xx

[butterfliez in reply to elsie15]

Well he has really low sperm count & just everything is low & poor quality, he is physically disabled so they think this is the reason why it’s so low , he has been taking fertility vitamins for a while to see if this helps. It is good to know we are not alone in this struggle X

[Msze]

I feel this way. It’s 4 years of constant pain and disappointment. Every Christmas is depressing.

[elsie15 in reply to Msze]

❤️❤️❤️ although I feel really rubbish about all of this, I just keep thinking that I am going to make the most out of Xmas especially with what has happened this year. Sending lots of love your way xxx

[kathgibson22]

Aww I'm so sorry lovely, there is hope though I promise! My husband had terrible sperm ..low everything and low motility. We were told we couldn't pregnant naturally. I researched loads of supplements. I put him on proceive max, high dose of vit c ( 1000mg ),q10 200mg, extra b12, dha, black maca, fenugreek, royal jelly, garlic supplements,brazil nuts 3 per day.

Also no deodorant for him unless unscented!

Very low alcohol intake ( I had to fight him constantly on this!)

Acupuncture can also help sperm.

Something must have done something as we are naturally pregnant after our failed ivf round !

Wishing you both all the luck lovely xxx

[elsie15 in reply to kathgibson22]

What a lovely and positive outcome and you’re right, it has happened. I just worry about building my hopes up because I feel that we have never had any positive news xxx

[Sparklylife in reply to kathgibson22]

Congratulations - that is fantastic news! 🥰 Wishing you all the best!

[Sparklylife]

It is so hard to wait, month after month. I really do wish there was a miracle waiting for us all - I am crossing fingers and toes it will be your turn soon 🤞 And hopefully surgical retrieval will work for you.

Like you say - make the most of Christmas! 🥰 And I know this is not easy - but what helped me waiting was using the time making sure I was as healthy as I could be ready for when we got the good to go signal! Doing my absolute all to try improve egg quality for instance. I also read up a bit about positive mindset and it has helped a little. As I still feel I am actively doing something - while I wait. You may already have done all this, and the wait sucks, the heartache over and over sucks - so I did not want to brush over that, hope you don’t took my advice the wrong way ☺️

Wishing you all the best - and a magical Christmas 🥰

[elsie15]

Thanks so much xx