Feeling really low

[Kitty230515]

Title says it’s all really.

It’s been such a crappy few days.

A year ago today was the day we got our 1st ever positive pregnancy test after our 1st round of IVF. Fast forward a year we’ve have had two miscarriages, so feeling pretty low about that. This week has hit me harder then I thought it would.

To make matters worse, I got my period yesterday and my endo pains are the worst they’ve been in a long time.

To top that off, my sister has told me I’m never allowed to see my nephew again because I refused to remove someone that she didn’t like from my Instagram, I’ve had to remove all the pictures I had of me and him together. And my mum has been told that if she shows me any pictures of him she won’t be able to see him ever again.

Just been a horrible few days and I feel like all I’ve done is cry.

Just feeling low xx

[Lovemylion]

O u poor thing. I couldn’t read and run. No wonder your feeling crappy! I’m sorry to hear of your miscarriages. I hope you’ve had/having support for your losses. Are you planning more IVF? There are lots of success stories on here after losses so there is hope! I’m afraid I don’t know anything about endo but I hope you can take some pain relief to ease it. It seems very extreme of your sister to react in this way and it’s actually very selfish not just because of the impact on u but on your nephew too! Cruel to deny him also of a relationship with his aunty. Perhaps it’s just a brief spat and will blow over?? I obvs know nothing of your relationship with your sister so it’s hard to comment. I hope this is all resolved soon as this is just all unnecessary added stress which you could do without. I’d have a bath and a de-caf brew and hope you feel bit better tomorrow. Sending big virtual hugs x

[Kitty230515 in reply to Lovemylion]

Thank you for your kind response.

We can’t decide whether to do IVF again, the emotional and money side of it is getting a bit much. But we’re not saying never if that makes sense.

My sister is extreme, unfortunately she uses my nephew as weapon when ever she doesn’t get her own way, this has just been the 1st time he’s been used against me.

Usually I cope quite well, but it’s all just come at once, and my usually coping mechanism have gone out of the window with the COVID 19 restriction.

But tomorrow is another day. It can’t be worse then today. 😂

[Lovemylion in reply to Kitty230515]

Hope your now feeling a little better and it’s normal to have up and down days. I completely understand....ivf is both financially and emotionally draining. I guess it depends how u feel about it all in a couple months. Have a break and perhaps look at some fertility insurance options? Easy for me to say I know......I’m not sure how we will finance more rounds if my frozen transfer doesn’t work but I guess we will weigh it up when we get there. Hugs xxx

[Kitty230515 in reply to Lovemylion]

Feeling loads better today thank you.

Think everything just came all at once, but had a social distance walk with a friend in the sunshine and just had a cry which helped.

Feeling loads more positive now.

Thank you xx

[Mary80]

Hello, Whaaaaaaat? Your sister thinks becos she has a child you can't have yours too. This is so annoying. Do you know what? Just pretend as if it didn't hurt you. OK two wrongs can never make a right.

Your time is coming. Yes a time when you will be a mother. You will concentrate more on your own children than your sister's. What da hellllllll.

Sending you huggs. You will definitely carry your children. It will end in praise.

[ttcemmie]

Here for you, lovely. Sorry it's so tough at the moment. Fertility struggles by themselves are absolutely horrendous even without awful poignant anniversaries of dates and then family drama on top of that! Here for you and understand what you're going through (except not sure what's going on with your sister - hopefully you can reconcile or find peace with the situation). Sending lots of love. xxx

[Kitty230515 in reply to ttcemmie]

Thank you.

Some days are just harder then others. But feeling so much better now.

Xx