Prostap / Down reg for round 2 ! ( I don’t want to 😱)

[RhinoCat]

It’s prostap day .... again!

Defo not feeling same as round one .

Can’t seem to shake the negatives?!? Think my brain is stuck in ‘we just gotta ride this storm and learn for the next turn mode’ 😱😱😱

Problem is..... it’s our last round of private before our nhs turn .... different stims and higher dose coming up in two weeks 🤪 maybe I’ll be more excited when I get to that ?

Think I’d rather clean my floors with a tooth brush than start this all again 😛🤪🤪🤪

Any advice on how to snap out of it ?

Love and hugs to all my ivf sisters 👯

Rhinocat x 😘💖💐

[Italy300618]

Hey lovely, think of today as the start towards having your little bundle of joy, so happy for you starting today, I'm a few weeks behind you, and I am counting down the days!

I know you will find that positivity perhaps when you're on your stims but you will find it. Focus on this cycle dont think about your nhs go, as this could be the one. Come on!! You got this!!

Thinking of you, good luck with the injections, sending hugs and baby dust to you xxx 💗💗💗🤞🤞🤞

[RhinoCat in reply to Italy300618]

Thanks Italy300618, the nurse was lovely this morning and it wasn’t as bad as last time 👌🏻 time to get my head in the game 👌🏻🤩🤣💐😘💖

[Corchi]

Sending love and courage your way. It’s so hard but we have to try right? My mother always says when your feeling down go be in nature. Perhaps take a walk and clear your head, watch Netflix a lot it has saved me when I just want to clear my head! Friends is always a good numbing chill experience !! You can do this 💪🏼 Trust trust trust and have you heart open. Thinking of you on your journey and wishing you all the love and baby dust in the world!

[RhinoCat in reply to Corchi]

You are right, it’s hard but we have to try ! Beautiful day here, so I might go for a walk later. Currently have a sore buttock and that yucky taste in my mouth . Time for some nice soup 🥣 👌🏻

[Hidden]

Hey, I soooo know how you feel, my first round I was so upbeat, by the time this one started I was asking all the nurses how I could be more positive! They didnt have any tips and just said 'you just have to keep going, don't worry about positive or negative thinking its a biological procedure and just tick each day off the list and work through it like that'

Once I took the pressure off about feeling positive I started to feel a bit better, and then when I started stimming I actually started to feel more positive because I was actually doing something positive if you see what I mean

Don't beat yourself up about it, just keep chugging along. You can do this! Masses of luck xx

[RhinoCat in reply to Hidden]

Keep going indeed! I’m going to try and be more Dory 🐠...... just keep swimming! Totally see what you mean , thank you so much 😘😘💖💖💖💐💐💐 just what I needed to hear 😘

[Cinderella5]

Hey Rhinocat....so it begins for you again! It is scary getting started again....not to mention the fact that we know all the crappy stuff after doing a cycle and it not working! You'll get there, try not to put too much pressure on yourself to be ok....I think Id rather clean floors with a toothbrush too but at the same time, you gotta be in it to win it!! You got this.......best of luck lovely!xx

[RhinoCat in reply to Cinderella5]

I’m in 👌🏻✅ crappy stuff indeed! Love this advice about taking the pressure off, the pressure is on the nursing team not me, I’m just the vehicle 😎 feel more in cruise control now that the prostap is in my system .

Here we go again 🎢

Do you have a plan for your ‘gift’ transfers ? Your story still warms my heart ❣ hugs to you 💐

[Cinderella5 in reply to RhinoCat]

I still feel like its not real but we got the gradings ia email on Monday morning so seen it in black and white! Lol Its true! We are hoping to prep for transfer end of April/beg May but its a tight schedule as my colleague is off on holiday 2nd week of May and need to be around to cover than.....so very much depend on AF this month and when it arrives! Hoping all will be ok though and not too long to go!

Cruise control, hee hee hee....well just you keep cruising, wont be long for you!xx

[Hidden]

Hey Rhino, my dear!🌸🌼🌻🌸

Ok, for this one I’m gonna use a military approach (yes I should be kinder, but soldiers aren’t and soldiers is what we are): you gotta do what you gotta do if you want your cutie pie baby in your arms.

Now, give me 20! (Kidding on this one!)

And trust me, cleaning the floor with a toothbrush is worse 😉while on meds you can eat pizza and watch tv! 😝

Have you got the mantra ready? The one Dr. 🦞 has prescribed every night before go to bed? (I’m testing ya!)

Cmon girl, your IVF sisters are here to fight with you- we can do this! 🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💗and the most important emoji 🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞🦞😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

Sending love & strength! Xxxxxxx

Mwah!!! 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋

[RhinoCat in reply to Hidden]

Beast eggs coming up , sir yes sir! 🤣

thanks for your love and strength! Needed that sister shout before I went into the clinic. Husband 🦏 still away, hard to do this stuff when he’s physically not in the building . Love my prescription of pizza and tv Dr 🦞, on it! Need to find some new things on Netflix for this round to keep me going.

Hopefully if the weather stays bright I can walk twice a day to pass some time and feel good 🌳 💐 🌷 🌼🌸🌻🌷💐🌸🌼🌻🌺 how’s baby 🦞?

[Hidden in reply to RhinoCat]

Ahahaha nooo it’s ‘healthy eggs, beast mode embryos’ 😂😂😂

Omg where is 🦏 hubs gone? You gonna need to isolate him when he comes back 😂😂😂🙈🙈🙈

I know it’s hard doing these crappy injections without the emotional support of hubby, but you got me! 😍(*low tone voice: hello dear I’m here with you*- very manly ahaha)

Have you watched Ray Donovan on Netlifx? That’s SO ADDICTIVE!

Baby 🦞 ...who knows? Lol it’s all very quiet, minor cramping...nausea on and off....just waiting for the scan on 12th March to find out if he/she is ok! Fingers crossed 🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻I alternate good and bad thoughts, but trying not to freak out too much lol

How cool would it be if we could go for a walk together? 😍💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

Ps: how was Edinburgh? Xx

[RhinoCat in reply to Hidden]

A walk together would be so good 😊 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

Hubs is in Doha with work 🙄 stupid work ! Good news is he can’t go anywhere for next six weeks because of corona virus hot spots! Yeeeoooo 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 I loved Ray D 👌🏻🤩😎 what will you be at on 12th March . Hopefully all is going well in there 🦞 ✅😊💖😊🌻

Scotland was great! Nice to see family and eat nice food. Lion King was good too 🦁 👌🏻😎

Need to work on my ivf roar a bit more:

Healthy eggs

Beast mode embryos 🦏 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻🙌🙌🙌🙌🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉💖💖💖💖💖💖🤣🤣🤣🤣

Thanks Issy 🦞😘💖💐💐💐💐💐

[Hidden in reply to RhinoCat]

YES!!!!! ivf roar in full swing!!!! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

I’ll be 9w on 12th March 🍀🤞🏻

🦞 and I are rooting for you! ❤️

[ttcemmie]

I'm having a similar thing where I'm thinking "I have to take injections for how long?". You'd think it gets easier, but it just seems to get harder! Sorry, this is a really helpful pep talk! Lol. I would also rather be cleaning the floor with a toothbrush or cutting my husbands toenails or some other grim activity, but I badly want a baby, so here we are..... injecting myself in the stomach for as long as it takes. Just got to do it! When people say life is about the journey and not the destination, I often think of IVF and laugh. This is sooooooo not about the journey. Keep thinking about the destination! Lots of love. xxxxxxxxxx

[RhinoCat in reply to ttcemmie]

🤣 the husband toenail suggestion was my turning point 🤣🤣🤣🤣

What’s the ivf equivalent for ‘down the hatch’ ? Whatever it is , that’s us right now. What about ‘stab and go’ ‘stim to win’ 🤣🤣🤣🤣

The journey 🎢🎢🎢 ..... the destination 👌🏻🤩 I’m so over the journey , are we nearly there yet springs to mind! I guess because we don’t know how long the journey takes we actually do just feel

Like a child in the sense that all we know is, it feels awfully long and .... could be over soon 🤣🤪

Keep ‘er lit! As we say in NI 💖💐

[JoP32]

For me taking it one day & one mini milestone at a time is the best way. If I start looking towards the end goal I get terrified at everything that can go wrong and find the series of hurdles we all have to cross to get to our happy ending almost too much to think about.

I also try to think about the positive things I have in my life and remind myself that although this Journey is shit I’m very grateful that we’re able to be on it.

Positivity comes and goes though and I do find once I start stims it helps so hopefully you’ll feel better then too!

Sending you lots of positive vibes! Xx

[RhinoCat in reply to JoP32]

Thanks pet , yep , you are right! I’m not really thinking about the end to be honest , just the whole stab stab yuck part at the moment .

You are right about being grateful x many can’t even afford to try 😘

[CLDxxx]

I feel you but you’ve totally got this!

Wishing you lots of luck lovely 😘xxx

[RhinoCat in reply to CLDxxx]

Thanks so much 😘💖💐

[KiboXX]

Hey RhinoCat,

Just wanted to say good luck with your new cycle! I know it’s hard to shake the negativity sometimes but the new protocol is a good thing, hopefully means bigger and better things for this cycle 🤞🏻

You’ve got this girl! ♥️ Don’t lose that Jerry positivity!xx

[RhinoCat in reply to KiboXX]

Need to watch some more of that Cheer and get my pom poms out! Thanks so much Kibo . How are you keeping ? 💐

[KiboXX in reply to RhinoCat]

Yes you do! It’s a great distraction, just what you need right now 🙌🏻

I’m doing good so far thanks. Slowly counting down the dragging days!xx

[RhinoCat in reply to KiboXX]

When is your next scan ?

[KiboXX in reply to RhinoCat]

I’ve got a private one booked for Thursday. Excited and bricking it at the same time! My 12 week one is the 23rd x

[RhinoCat in reply to KiboXX]

Exciting and nervous times 💖💖💖💐💐💐 hope all goes well 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💖💖💐 love and hugs 🤗

[KiboXX in reply to RhinoCat]

Thank you! ♥️♥️♥️

Hoping the prostap doesn’t have you feeling too rubbish 😘 xx

[MrsH86]

Sending all the positive vibes for your new cycle ♥️

You’re just at that bit at the start of the rollercoaster where you were so excited waiting in the queue but now that you are in the seat you suddenly start thinking oh no my shoes are going to fall off/ my seatbelt isn’t secure enough/ why did I eat so much. It’s a totally real feeling (well that’s how I feel on rollercoasters and I love them 😂), sometimes it isn’t until something starts that suddenly you think of all the negative things at once even if it’s something you really want to do.

Just need to keep on telling your brain it’s a new cycle with new doses so no use comparing it to the last 💕

My husbands away for work too so I’m all about Netflix and dog walking/cuddles x

[RhinoCat in reply to MrsH86]

Oh this is brilliant 🤣🤩🤩🤩👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻💖💖💖💖💖 to me it’s like a ghost train rollercoaster situation 🎢 👻 👹👿👽🧟‍♀️🧟‍♂️😱 defo great idea to think new doses no comparisons! Thanks for this 😘

Anything good you’ve found on Netflix ?

[MrsH86 in reply to RhinoCat]

😂😂 it defo is the ghost train because you think you roughly know what you are getting but don’t know til you go through the doors 🙈👻 and then it turns out not scary at all 😂.

I’m a Ru Paul’s Drag Race on repeat girl (even my husband can quote it now) 😂. Recently I’ve liked The Stranger and The Witcher but my faves are prob Line of Duty, Good Girls, alllll the David Attenborough docs, AHS and Black Mirror. If you ever need a crying day if you haven’t watched it New Amsterdam on amazon prime is fab for some tear jerking (I think I may have just been having a hormonal week - but it helps 😊) x

[RhinoCat in reply to MrsH86]

Oh brill ideas 😘 thanks so much

[Lots8788]

Lots of luck to you hun x x

[RhinoCat in reply to Lots8788]

Thanks pet