It’s been a while since i’ve been on here. Life’s been a bit of a rollercoaster since our failed FET in June. Emotions everywhere, work stress, relationships stress all resulted in me having to take time off work to sort my head and heart out.
Started counselling with my partner in September-which was brill. But I just couldn’t cope with work. So was signed off mid October. It was such a relief for me. A few weeks of crying, talking, and relaxing and I was starting to feel positive and excited about doing another FET in January (2 blastocyst left). Then on 9th December I found out i was pregnant. Naturally. I was absolutely shocked but also totally over the moon! We weren’t trying at all! And In the 4 yrs of trying, I have never been pregnant. It was a miracle. It didn’t last long....we lost the pregnancy at 8weeks and it broke me.
I have not been back to work since October and i’m now due to go back next Tuesday (3rd). I still feel emotionally drained following miscarriage, but I’m also very anxious about work. I hate my job, it’s very stressful and i truly believe that i got pregnant because I wasn’t in work. My plan is to resign but I can’t until July. So i have to go back really 😔
But when? Everyone keeps telling me that i’m most fertile after miscarriage which makes going to work, and becoming embroiled in that environment really daunting and i’m fearful that it’ll have a detrimental effect on our chances. I’m probably overthinking everything....typical me!!
Also, I have 2 embryos waiting for me if i want a FET too.
I’m 39 in a week. I’m really unsure what to do. Go back to work and keep trying naturally, stay off a bit more and keep trying. Resign now (partner is fully supportive of this idea). Do FET now or wait.....🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯
I realise i’ve just hard verbal diarrhoea here as well....apologies about this 😫. My mind is so busy and i’m so scared of making the wrong decision.
Any advice would be really really appreciated 💗
Thank you soo much.😘