So sorry but had no one else to talk to. I am feeling bit bitter and I hate this feeling. my sibling and wife are having their 2nd baby, she a year older than me and got pregnant naturally with there first straight away and exactly 1 year later got pregnant naturally again, they shared there 3 month scan today and my heart sank, both with joy but been depressed as well, there is a family get together this Saturday and all relatives will be there who I can’t stand and they are announcing there news with all this Saturday, I wish I didn’t have to be there.
I have wonderful niece and nephews and my siblings are great with me, but I just can’t help but feel so sad and low for me and my partner. we are going for ICSI/IVF again next month and I am feeling negative about the whole thing because my heart is already telling me it won’t work. when I follow my heart, I am always right. Just feel proper crap and I feel like a total cow how I felt towards this news, so happy but so sad at the same time. Just cant handle all this.