7dp5dt thoughts..

[XOXO13]

Today I’m 7dp5dt and I’m tired! Anxiety is slowly creeping in..

I usually sleep so well, but I’m struggling to sleep these past few days. I think subconsciously the anxiety is keeping me awake!

I was also convinced my period would show up during the night. Lots of lower abdominal cramping (since day 3), some quite strong prods here and there nearer my right or centre lower abdomen (since day 4 I think) and lower back pain (which I don’t really feel or complain about so that’s a new one for me).

My boobs are still tender.. I actually like the feeling of sore boobs because I can dream for a while that my transfer has worked even if it’s just a symptom of the progesterone! I give them a good touch in the morning sometimes if they feel less tender than usual praying they’ll get tender again 🤭

And my strangest symptoms is dry skin (had to pick up some special cream from the pharmacist for my flaking dry skin that’s agitating me) and a tender to touch tiny little lump in my throat which my mum thinks is a goitre but my doctor says not to worry about it.. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I’m on 50mg thyroxine daily so my thyroid levels should be stable ..

These hormones (progynova and cylogest) are playing havoc with me. If this transfer fails, I’m a little scared to stop taking them as I’ve no doubt my period will show up with full force.

I’ve kept myself busy with reading (got through three books in a week), gentle yoga, Netflix and slow gentle walks! Back at work now but not really focused on it - my mind keeps wondering. I’ve tried to make a plan for if this doesn’t work, what questions would I ask my consultant (I’m sure I’ll lean on you all for some tips there) but I make myself sad as at the moment I’m trying to remain hopeful!

Anyway, this post isn’t really to ask anything as much as it is for me to pour out my thoughts!

I know there’s a few of you ladies crawling to the same OTD as me so fingers crossed we get good news 🤍💫🤞🏻 Xx

[RubyVet]

I’m 5dp5dt today. Yesterday I started to get the fear creeping up on me. I’m exhausted and only my left boob is heavy and aches. But that’s it.

I have to wake up at 3am to do a pessary as I need them every 6 hours and I sleep fine until then but then I bloat and I’m uncomfortable so struggle to sleep afterwards. I do fall back to sleep because my husband wakes me with a cup of tea around 8 then so I can be ready for the 9am pessary.

I cannot help but feel like I’m doing it all for nothing.

I honestly think it’s a form of torture! Xxx

[XOXO13 in reply to RubyVet]

I keep telling myself that symptoms mean nothing .. but it’s really hard isn’t it!

I’ve been eating pineapple core everyday, Brazil nuts and drinking pomegranate juice. I’ve done acupuncture and I just think if this doesn’t work then I don’t know what else to do 🤷🏻‍♀️ It is a form of torture and it’s scary too.

Waking at 3am for a pessary must be tough, feel for you! I’m just on two (800mg total) a day though I did try push for me but I was told I wouldn’t need it!

How lovely of your husband bringing you a brew in the morning, cute! How are you filling your days?

Fingers crossed for us both 🤞🏻🤍💫 xx

[Rain415]

I know what you mean about the tender boob check! I think my husband was going to lock me in a padded room with the amount of times I was checking must look like I've got a very weird twitch 😂. I had cramps and lower back pain from 5dpo it's so hard as I never know how to take symptoms due to the meds. Hang I there not long now! Everything g crossed for you! X

[XOXO13 in reply to Rain415]

The things we will do hey!

I saw you got a positive test at 8dp5dt right? Congratulations. How are you feeling?

I’m too scared to test, I don’t think I’ll cope too well if it’s negative 🤦🏻‍♀️ Xx

[Rain415 in reply to XOXO13]

Thank you! Yea 8dpt now feeling bad for testing early cause I cant stop testing to make sure it's still positive! OTD tomorrow so hopefully be easier then get a scan booked in. It's such a nerve wracking wait, whens your OTD? Xx

[XOXO13 in reply to Rain415]

It really is, but you’ve got your positive so enjoy that and take it one step at a time!

My OTD is Saturday, so scared! Xx

[hifer]

Oh hun I’m also 7dpet and I know exactly how you feel. The symptom paranoia is the worst although I have to say that when I feel like I had symptoms I’ve not been pregnant and then when I haven’t I’ve been pregnant twice!! I wouldn’t look into them too much as they really can send you mad!! I get sore boobs from the progesterone and also have abdominal pain/ cramps every day with a healthy dose of bloating!

My advice would be to try and take one day at a time if you possibly can. I always find looking at the bigger picture (what do we do next, what if it doesn’t work etc) sends me into a bit of a tailspin. You’ll be better equipped to deal with those questions, further down the line if you have to. Also we can definitely assist with questions for the consultant if you have to get there.

For now, you’re trying to remain hopeful, as you say, which is just brilliant. We’re all here for you and support you. 🤞🤞

Xx

[XOXO13 in reply to hifer]

One day at a time is perfect, I try to do that.

It’s so weird how symptoms work. When I was last pregnant, I had really bad symptoms but they were identical symptoms to my period coming so I didn’t realise I was pregnant until week 5/6. After my miscarriage, any pre-period symptoms I used to experience disappeared - not even a tingle in the boob! So strange.

So I know not to read i to symptoms .. I may have a little dream here and there and pretend it’s worked to keep my hopes up! ☺️

Good luck to you too.. fingers crossed Saturday brings us some good news 🤍💫🤞🏻 Xxx

[hifer in reply to XOXO13]

I know it is so weird. I do actually have a lot of dreams where I am pregnant. My dreams when I’m on drugs are just crazy and feel so real it’s so weird. Not only do we put up with side effects during the day but also in our sleep too 😂. Good luck to you too lovely xx

[SPLPX]

I feel exactly the same and had a dream last night that I came on my period! The anxiety is the worst. I am also back to work this week but struggling to focus.

I still have a dry mouth and I get back ache from about 5pm (odd) and a few twinges in the early days, but other than that nothing else.

Hoping the next 3 days go quickly for us 🤞🏻🥰

If mine is negative I will just plan to have another medicated FET and hope for the best. We’ve done all we can xx

[XOXO13 in reply to SPLPX]

The fear of coming onto our periods is very real isn’t it! I slight ache and I’m like noooo, the monster is coming! But hopefully that’s not the case and it’s a positive sign! 🤞🏻

Are you taking a test at home or having your bloods taken? This time round they’ve given me a home pregnancy test (an instant no or yes eek) xx

[SPLPX in reply to XOXO13]

I have a home test. What’s the reason they would do a blood test? This is my first so I’m still learning!

I am taking 3 progynova and 3 cyclogest a day, as well as oestrogen patches too! Are you on the same?

xx

[XOXO13 in reply to SPLPX]

They do a blood test to measure HCG in the blood - I can have one if I want one after I’ve taken the home pregnancy test or if I’d prefer to do that than take the home test. But the stress of waiting around all day for a call to tell me the result was unbearable for me!

I’m on 4x Progynova all at once at night, and 2x progesterone pessaries (one morning, night).

You’re on a little more than me! How you doing on it all? Xx

[SPLPX in reply to XOXO13]

Oh ok. Yeah that would be awful waiting for someone else to deliver a result. At least on Saturday we will be at home and get an instant yes or no.

I’ve had cramps and backache this afternoon similar to period pains 😞 I’ve googled and some say it’s good some says it’s bad.

I’m finding the medication fine to be honest, much better than the injections!

Any more symptoms for you? 3 more days 🤞🏻 Xx

[XOXO13 in reply to SPLPX]

I did the same this morning having experienced those exact symptoms yesterday - and lots of women said it was a good sign for them and of course you have others where it’s not good signs! It really is impossible to tell isn’t it!

My boobs are still tender. My cramps have been fine all day but just started to creep back in - they’re really low too which makes me think it’s my periods way of saying “let me come out now” but the pessaries are stopping it!

The waiting game is hard .. baby dust sprinkles to us all 💫🤞🏻 Xx

[Cinderellie]

Hey, I'm 8dpt5dt and its driving me insane!! Its my first time but who knew 12 days was sooo long? Its's not even my embryo but I think the pressure is on for my body to hold on to it for someone else's sake. Wishing everybody sticky ones 🤞🤞🤞

[XOXO13 in reply to Cinderellie]

It’s such a long window, the days go slow!!

Fingers crossed your little embaby sticks!! 🤞🏻 Is your OTD Friday then? Xx

[Cinderellie in reply to XOXO13]

Thank you, you too! I'm also taking three pessarys and one gel a day. I don't know what OTD is (new to all this) but I've been asked to do the pregnancy test on Saturday by the clinic. I'm now trying to work out how best to tell the intended parents for either result, lockdown makes it far less personal too. Is your OTD Friday? xx

[XOXO13 in reply to Cinderellie]

OTD = official test date ☺️

Same day as me then! 🤞🏻

You just have to be honest - if it’s a positive then it will make it super easy to tell them! If it’s not, then it sucks and they’ll be sad but it’s important not to give up hope. Hope that it will work a second time if it doesn’t the first time.

The thing with all of this is that it’s so out of our control once embaby is placed in our uterus, we just have to pray it works. Sometimes sadly it doesn’t, other times it does! I wish it worked every time so we didn’t have to face the sad news.

What you’re doing though is truly special and the intended parents will know that 💫 xx

[Cinderellie in reply to XOXO13]

Yeah you're right, it certainly will be easy if its positive. Ahh they got quite a few good embryos so we've got that on our side I guess. Thanks for your positivity!! Fingers crossed for us all for Saturday. Have you been tempted to test early? It's on my mind all the time xx

[XOXO13 in reply to Cinderellie]

Nooo, I’m too scared to test! I do have very low cramps in my tummy so praying it’s not my period wanting to push through. For now I just want to pretend my treatment has worked and then burst the bubble on Saturday!

Do you think you will? Xx

[Cinderellie in reply to XOXO13]

I've also had some suspicious twinges/cramps and I keep thinking I've come on but I think the pessaries aren't helping with that feeling. Hoping its implantation 🤞... I think I will test early but Thurs or Friday because I'm surprised I've lasted this long 🙈 haha!! xx

[XOXO13 in reply to Cinderellie]

Yeah, I keep telling myself that too! I’ll say to my husband ooo I’ve got a twinge, have a moment of panic and then just say hopefully that’s embaby getting nice and snug 🤞🏻

Eek good luckkkk! If I wake up Friday with an urge to test, I may just do eek! xxx

[Hidden]

I am day 9dpt5dt and my cramps for 3 days have been so painful, like something has to release or give... that's the only way I can explain it and it's making me so so nervous 😩

[XOXO13 in reply to Hidden]

Ah yeah, really lower abdominal cramps? Some of mine have been like that. It is really nerve wracking! Fingers crossed it’s good news 🤞🏻💫

[Hidden in reply to XOXO13]

It's definitely womb, I don't know if it is more painful than my period cramps. I think it is but that could be progesterone. I feel like this is all driving me crazy! Fingers crossed for both of us! x

[XOXO13 in reply to Hidden]

It’s very difficult because we can only speculate what each feeling or pain may mean! Fingers crossed 🤞🏻 🤞🏻 Xx

[Minnie92]

Aw I remember the morning boobie squeeze so well 😂 everything sounds promising and keeping everything crossed for you that this is your time 🤞🏼✨

[XOXO13 in reply to Minnie92]

I’ve just had a feel, ever so slightly tenderness 🤣

Thank you!!! 🤞🏻💫 xxx