To all you lovely ladies TTC. Don’t give up even though you may feel it will never happen for you.
After years of never getting caught we got tested and partner had low sperm count and everything else to be honest. I was very scared my tubes were blocked but they never tested me.
Our first round of icsi was successful but it was a tough journey regardless.
The injections, the tablets you have to insert etc. All worth it for preparation but still quite overwhelming.
Egg collection day!!! I won’t lie, this had me in tears, I felt violated and it was very uncomfortable. The numbing needle hurt like hell up there!! But... 11 eggs collected. 6 fertilised and 3 made it. One was already hatching at day 5 blastocyst (My Ellie).
It was so special on transfer day.... watching them insert the embryo into my uterus on the screen was out of this world. I can remember saying ‘mummy’s attached to you so now you have to attach to mummy’.
And that’s just what she did.
I think I waited days before I couldn’t wait any longer and I took a test. It was negative. I was certain it had not worked. I took another the next morning and I saw a very very faint line so I took another in the afternoon and again the same result.
I took a test every morning and every late afternoon after that and to my amazement the line just kept getting darker and darker and I WAS PREGNANT.
The nerves don’t stop just because you have a positive test result though. I was anxious and convinced myself it wouldn’t last and I’d lose it. 6 weeks scan showed a heartbeat. I can remember how much my back hurt me because of the hormones but they said it was normal.
12 week scan.... I saw my baby for the first time on screen and I couldn’t bring myself to smile because I was still so very scared at this point.
Anyway scan by scan she was fine. When I found out she was a girl I cried because I wanted a boy at first haha. But I’m so glad she’s a girl now.
Text book labour. Waters broke, contractions started and within 8 hours she arrived. I did tear but that’s because I’m eager and pushed when I shouldn’t have.
She’s now 16 months old and is so so cheeky. Cute, pretty and well I forget sometimes how she made it to this world.
I’m now pregnant again.... NATURALLY!
Another girl and I’m due anytime now (37+4 weeks today).
They do say it’s common to conceive naturally after assisted conception but I didn’t believe it would happen to us. To my surprise I got a positive test in January 2019 as my friend was having me on about me being pregnant and I simply took the test just to shut her up but it actually shut me up haha. I believe it’s because we was both stress free at the time and drunk haha.
Never give up. Have faith. I never thought I’d be a mummy and look at me now.
At what point do you just give up
Don't give up 😇
Never give up!
*Sensitive* Anxious about line progression with frer! IVF fresh cycle 
