Lost hope or fool for even thinking

[Ropa19]

Hi everyone, so we have had 3 failed transfers, 2 fresh and 1 FET, nearly 5 years trying. We’re about to start having tests for implantation issues as all the embryos have been high quality. However, this month I started to wonder if I was pregnant naturally (why I still think this 5 years on!!) but my nipples are soooo tender, which is not one of my normal symptoms of period coming, tender breasts sometimes but not usually my nipples. I usually have a 25ish day cycle, and today is day 26 and no sign of AF 🤞yet but I took a test yesterday which was PFN so I thought oh well who was I kidding anyway, but my acupuncturist seems to think it’s too early to test as she said I ovulated quite late, maybe day 15-16 of cycle? Do you think she’s right or should I stop dreaming?? Thanks for reading my essay!!! Xxx

[EmGLA]

Hello

I think we all have to have hope or we wouldn't be here. And whether or not we hope doesn't change the disappointment if it doesn't work out.

If AF doesn't come it seems only natural to test. I've got my fingers crossed for you!

xx

[Ropa19 in reply to EmGLA]

Thanks for your reply, your right! I suppose it’s nice after so long that the hope is still there I just then get annoyed with myself for allowing my hope to get carried away when it all comes crashing down xx

[EmGLA in reply to Ropa19]

Well I can maybe say that from naivety as I start my first cycle next week just taking norethisterone to stimulate a bleed at the moment (isn't it funny how we are either desperate for AF to appear or not appear!). So I feel quite focused mentally just now, God knows what I'll be like in a few weeks time!

I think hope and positivity are really important though so I am def going to try and emulate you.

Good luck!

[Hidden]

Never stop dreaming miracles can definitely happen! Hope is the only thing that keeps any of us going.

I conceived twice after my endometriosis was diagnosed & treated - the first BFP was 6 years after TTC but was a chemical pregnancy, the second BFP was my 4 week old daughter after a 7 year struggle ( with additional 2 further surgeries post CP to treat my endometriosis) so yes miracles can happen!!!

With both my pregnancies I waited till I was 15/16 days post ovulation which was the day after my missed period which is when drs recommend you test 🤞🏻. I would wait until at least the day after missed period - if your periods are regular that’s a good sign 🤞🏻not to try to build hopes up but nipple pain was my first symptom of being pregnant with my daughter- normally I’d have breast pain but when I conceived with my daughter I had terrible pain with my nipples. That was my only symptom until my missed period.

I used clearblue digital conception pregnancy test both times with first urine of the day & made my hubby hold the tests🤣 I was terrified of negative tests 😢

I hope AF stays away it’s awful when you’re waiting to see if AF is coming it was the time of month I’d dread the most. Really hope it’s a BFP for you keeping everything crossed for you xoxo

[Ropa19 in reply to Hidden]

Oh wow congratulations hope you are adjusting to motherhood well! Thanks so much for your reply! Xx

[runsoncuddles]

I don't think there's anything wrong with hope. It's what keeps us going, like Emma said if AF doesn't show please test. Wishing you nothing but great news xx

[Ropa19 in reply to runsoncuddles]

Thanks for your reply, I think if it hasn’t come by tomorrow I’ll test again as usually it would be yesterday or today it would come xx

[crisps88]

I agree with the ladies Hope is sometimes all we have. Even though sometimes it’s the most cruel thing to have. Hope you are doing well x