7weeks 3 days 💔

[Lewi100]

So I'm not sure if any of you have seen my previous posts but myself and my partner had ICSI treatment. We had a fresh transfer and we were over the moon when we done our test and it came back positive! ....... then we waited for our scan. After having 2 scans it was confirmed my baby's heartbeat had stopped 💔 I'm at such a loss at the moment as I just don't know if I will ever be ready to go again. My partner has been my rock through it all and I honestly don't know where i would have been if I didn't have him but tomorrow I would have been 12 weeks and I just can't get myself to stop counting how far. I'm so upset still now that I just don't know how to speak to people and tell them how I feel. I just feel like my heart is constantly breaking.... we are waiting buying a house at the moment as we wanted to keep ourselves busy until I am ready to try again but the house we are in now we have the world's worst neighbours.... that have 2 kids! Seeing people who don't deserve them really makes me angry upset and sometimes I even think I'm depressed over it all and I just don't know how I can learn to cope with the loss. Please no judgement I'm just looking for advice TIA x

[Kitcat12]

It's awfully sad, I understand exactly how you feel 😞 I should be 28 weeks now, I think about how far along I should be every single day, even though I've had a FET a few days back, doesn't stop me thinking about what should have been. I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope that one day you'll be ready go try again but don't rush yourself, the grieving process takes time and is different for everyone. Look after yourself and take your time x

[Lewi100 in reply to Kitcat12]

It's so emotionally draining isn't it... I'm glad I'm not the only one that's feeling this way then. Thank you for your kind words xx

[Kitcat12 in reply to Lewi100]

It's exhausting, physically and emotionally. Try to be kind to yourself x

[AJJ123]

It’s crap, as someone who has also experienced loss and numerous bfn’s I get where your coming from.

It’s hard moving on but it does get easier. I would have been due on 15 June. I’m not sure how I feel about it right now.

It does get easier to accept, and I know in my heart there was something wrong with my embryos and there’s a reason why they didn’t progress.

Today was my test day after a frozen transfer, it didn’t go well.

It doesn’t make it right, or fair and I totally know how you feel about people who pop kids out. The kids are usually not watched and get up to all kinds because the parents are lazy gits on their phones all day.

Xx

[Anya80]

I’m so very sorry for your loss😰

I was in your place back in 2017 and this feeling of baby lose is never left me completely but the time just passed calmed a bit my emotions. I hope you will get the peace you need in time, don’t be to hard on yourself but allow yourself the grief. It’s absolutely normal to feel the way you are, anger and failure and sadness and distraught. You would never forget your baby and the lose of this little angel but in time hopefully you will be able to accept it.

My heart goes to you 😘❤️your little angel will always be with you🙏

[Core]

No advice sorry but just wanted to say I’m so sorry to hear this and can’t imagine how devastating this time must be for you xx

[Hidden]

I’ve been through this too counting how many weeks, due dates my first mc baby would have be turning 1 on 10th June 2nd would have been born 3rd feb and I should be 31 weeks pregnant now. I have stopped counting weeks now but it’s hard to pass the due dates I want to forget to make it easier but I can’t. I hope you are able try again and have your baby xx

[Hidden]

I’m really sorry for your loss.

I had a loss in July 2017. I lost the baby early at 4.5 weeks. Like you I remembered how many weeks I would have been, 12 weeks was a tough one & the due date was horrendous. I kept hoping I’d be pregnant again before due date , but due to my endometriosis re growing rapidly after the loss that didn’t happen & I had 2 more surgeries to remove the endometriosis ( it affected my fertility badly) I felt despairing in a very dark place & was convinced it would never happen. However 2 months after my last surgery & 13 months from the loss I conceived I’m now 38 weeks pregnant.

Miscarriages are very sad & there will always be painful reminders. Grieving is very individual and there’s no right or wrong. By speaking to others is a good thing to do, it helps you let go of the pain. I bottled mine up & would cry alone, and I pushed my hubby away.it was a dark lonely place. Some ladies access counselling to help them come to terms. It is also okay to feel sad- you had the joy of a BFP which we all are so desperately want but it was stolen from you- you are entitled to feel upset by it. It’s always the wrong people that get fertility issues, I’m sorry your neighbours aren’t good parents it’s very difficult to see others have what you want & not be more appreciative of it 😢

Time really is the only healer. I guess we carry on going because the desire to have a baby is so strong.

Miscarriages are a sign something wasn’t right with the embryo nothing you did wrong (. I felt guilty after our loss) unfortunately nature doesn’t always get it right. It doesn’t make it any less painful. Please do remember that the vast majority of women that suffer a miscarriage will go on to have a healthy baby. Just because that pregnancy didn’t work out doesn’t mean that another one wouldn’t. There is hope ❤️

Take as much time as you need before doing anything.

Be kind to yourselves & do some nice things together 💞 you will get through this xoxo

[Elynn]

So sorry 🌻