feeling down

[MrsBully2017]

Hey guys how did people feel after a failed ivf round?? I had my bfn last Saturday, i struggled that day but as me and my husband were in holiday I was able to push it to the back of my mind and enjoy the rest of the time away. Now home and back to reality I am really struggling, feel very teary and so down.

[vickyg1988]

I got a BFN Monday and Wednesday for my double check test. I feel exactly how you feel, I also feel jealous when I see other people post they are pregnant and I don’t understand what I did so wrong for this to keep happening. Yesterday I felt like I was picking up and feeling better where as today I just feel like crying and not getting out of bed all day. BFN’s suck!!!!! Xx

[MrsBully2017 in reply to vickyg1988]

I was never told to do a double check, but I have bled but not alot which is what I would have expected, as I thought cause of using the pessaries to help with the lining I would have had a big bleed.

[vickyg1988 in reply to MrsBully2017]

I was told to carry on my medicine and do a second test just to double confirm the results, but I hadn’t bleed and I still had all the symptoms of being pregnant. I couldn’t believe my results until last night when I started to bleed a little I still thought they were wrong 😔.... hope this helps a little knowing your not the only one feeling this way xx

[Hope76]

So sorry, must’ve been horrible to find out on holiday. I have been there twice and was especially down and teary when period came. It is rubbish, take all the time you need, relax and be kind to yourself. In my case I have a break and then get going with the next attempt as it keeps me going. Take care x

[Hidden]

I'm really sorry to hear about your BFN, I had one yesterday so I know how your are feeling, spent all day in tears, it is hard and each one gets harder. Just know that you are doing everything you possibly can and be kind to yourself xx

[MrsBully2017 in reply to Hidden]

I feel ok most of the time and then wham it hits me and I find myself crying.

I think I will feel better once I get my appointment at the fertility clinic to discuss.next steps.

[Nixy87 in reply to MrsBully2017]

Hi, I also had bfn 2 days ago whilst on holiday and same day our grandad passed. I feel ok then randomly feel very sad and tearful. Sending you hugs xx

[MrsBully2017 in reply to Nixy87]

oh bless you, sorry to hear your news. I'm struggling to want to go back to work this week, as I have a staff member who is currently at the injection stage, and I want to be happy for her as she now starting her journey but resent her cause hers may work. I feel horrible feeling that way but can't help it

[Nixy87 in reply to MrsBully2017]

Completely natural to feel that way hun. Just try to focus on yourself and your own journey and next steps xx

[Tugsgirl]

After a bfn, two mmcs, and another two bfns I was at the point where I thought I was battle hardened and I could take another bfn. And I really think I could have. Luckily for me I had another bfp and then the biggest fear becomes another loss. Some find each bfn harder to take, some, like me, just put up a barrier but all find that first one the hardest. It is tough, unfair and cruel. Given time you will find the strength to continue. Until then take good care of yourself xx

[MrsBully2017]

thank you... I'm sure it will get better with time. good luck with yours xx

[Shirazlover2013]

It sucks doesn’t it 😩 some days I’m ok and others something small will set me off. My better days are when I use distraction to not let my mind wander off into the sadness. Also we’ve made a rough plan of when we’d like to do another round of ICSI (we ended with nothing to freeze so back to the beginning for us I’m afraid). Having a plan makes me feel like I have some control and something to look forward to. Good luck and look after yourself xx

[MrsBully2017 in reply to Shirazlover2013]

thank you. i am waiting on an appointment with the fertility clinic abiut next steps as we have 2 frosties.

that will be our last chance as I am 42 in a few days so have no more funded cycles, and I did say to my husband I don't think I could go through another fresh cycle again. fingers crossed for you and your next round. x

[KJLee]

So sorry to hear of your bfn. I struggled after ours. I took time off work and when I thought I could cope I went back in but first day back and I’m crying at my desk at 10am. Luckily they were understanding and supportive and gave me the time off I needed. I also felt anxiety when going to the the food shop and stuff. Just take the time out for you and make sure you look after yourself. Maybe find a distraction, another trip away or see what your options are for the next round - something to look forward to? Wishing you all the best xx

[MrsBully2017 in reply to KJLee]

I am dreading going back to work on Wednesday as I have a colleague who is currently injecting at the moment, and i don't know I am going to be if she comes back to work and says it has worked (it will be her first round as well)