So I have possible egg transfer tomorrow. I’ve gotta be honest, I’m 💩ing myself. I’m trying to be level headed but I’m crumbling. I’m 34 I’ve had two pregnancies before resulting with now a 16 year old and a 13 year old. I discovered I had endometriosis when my youngest was three. My partner who I’ve been with for seven years same age. Suffered from Hodgkin’s lymphoma when he was 18. He done two batches which were frozen. In total he had eight samples for ivf. Egg Coll went better this time round and we ended up with five eggs that made through the first 24 hours. The lab technician told me they struggled with the sperm sample as it wasn’t very strong or great.
Now I know I’m not a fortune teller but I’ve got a gut feeling that’s been brewing since yesterday. I don’t think they have made it. I’m probably just preparing myself for the worst. But I just can’t shift this gut feeling. I know no one knows what tomorrow will bring. But i feel that it would help if the lab could just check on them. But with the clinic I go to they don’t disturb them for the whole time they are in the incubator. Which is brilliant but so frustrating.
I just needed to get my thought out there. As it’s so hard to speak to my partner as one I don’t wanna make him feel inadequate and two I don’t wanna devastate him with my negative thoughts.
Our last cycle broke us with only one egg making it to day 3. And that was our only egg we had.
Oh I just don’t know. 🙁