Beta Results :/

[AJJ123]

I had my scan on Halloween and there was an empty sac like structure which sucks measuring 5 weeks instead of 7.

I’ve been to EPU on Friday results 550, results today 527. The EPU have asked me to go back on Tuesday for a third and final blood test - depending on the result I’ll need to decide with the consultant which way to proceed. If the results go down or remain static then I will need to decide how I miscarry.

What a totally sucky time I’m having with my dad on his last weeks - I honestly don’t know what I’m crying about, is it the loss of my potential child or the loss of my dad? I don’t know which way to direct my tears.

Should I be angry with the clinic for giving me a dud? Could they tell they were duds when they were put in?

I’ll get through it whatever. I have to because I have a small child who needs his mummy.

Anyway, I guess that’s it from me and my IVM story for now. I’ve got one frozen - if it makes it through the thaw. Perhaps I’ll try in the new year.

Before I think about that there’s a few areas I want to sort out - if they can be.

Good luck to you all going through your journeys. I hope you end up with happier results than I’ve received and have happy healthy pregnancies xxx

[Autumnmoon]

I'm so sorry this is happening especially at the same time as your Dad's illness just sending love that you will get through the next few weeks and happier times will come take extra special care of yourself x

[AJJ123 in reply to Autumnmoon]

Thank you Autumnmoon. I really hope so xx

[Hidden]

So sorry to read this. It is such a hard hard time. Big hugs xx

[AJJ123 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, it really is right now. With a little support now and then I’ll get through it xx

[Tugsgirl]

I’m sorry to read this. What a tough time you’re having. Sending my best to you and for your Dad xx

[AJJ123 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thanks, it’s never plain sailing for me with anything. The odd thing is, I almost felt from the very beginning it wasn’t destined to be. Like the tests were wrong. I didn’t feel ‘pregnant’ just bloated, no aversions, nausea or sore bbs. I know that this doesn’t mean anything for most, but I think it means something for me. My dad is what I can concentrate on now I guess, seeing out his final days with him without having to hold back. Science is truly amazing, when they get it right. This time not so, maybe next time xxx

[Dunla]

I’m so very sorry to hear all you are going through. Sending you love xx

[AJJ123 in reply to Dunla]

Thank you, really rough right now having ups and downs xxx

[Mifkipi]

I'm so sorry to be reading this. All the best to both you and your dad x

[AJJ123 in reply to Mifkipi]

Thank you xxx

[hifer]

Really sorry to hear this. Tough times indeed. Thinking of you x

[AJJ123 in reply to hifer]

Thank you lovely, I shall soldier on xx

[Snez84]

So sorry to hear about your Beta results. This process can be so cruel at times.

I also lost my Mum 12 years ago so I know the pain you’re feeling in terms of your Dad. Some people get dealt a tough hand in life but you’re strong and you will get through it all, I promise. Thinking of you and your family. Make sure you look after yourself and give that little one of yours extra cuddles tonight xx

[AJJ123 in reply to Snez84]

I will, thank you. I just worry I’m not much fun for him lately xx

[Cinderella5]

Im so sorry to hear your news! Lots of love and hugs.xx

[AJJ123 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you xxx