Toxic environment

[Seasaw]

Just had a 3rd go at IVF and produced no eggs this time. The dr explained after the attempted EC that my remaining follicle (Right ovary and follicle have both been removed) is so scarred from previous surgery that it is maybe collecting fluid, as they keep seeing a cyst. She told me that this could leak fluid down and create a 'toxic environment' for any embryo that is implanted, either from me or from a donor egg. One option is to have exploratory surgery to find out exactly what's going on, which I can take, but have had a lot of surgery over the last decade, and was hoping that might be over. I should make it clear that she was very kind and sensitive, and she took lots of time to answer all my questions, so I have no criticism at all of her, she did her job very well. But the words 'toxic environment' just keep playing in my head. I was watching a film tonight with a little girl in it and all I had in my head was those words telling me 'people like you aren't meant to have children'.

I am fully aware this isn't rational. It's a medical fact rather than a judgement. But oh man is it feeling like a harsh fact right now.

Anyone else been there?

I often read posts on here without replying because the things I try to write never seem right, but really appreciate reading what other people say on their posts and feeling a bit less alone with all this. You're all so wonderful and strong and brave

Thank you

Lou x

[baby2016]

Sorry to hear what your going through. Due to me having hydrosalpinx (blocked tubes filled with fluid) I was told before I could move onto ivf I needed both tubes removing as the fluid can be ‘toxic’ to rmbryos and can wash them away just after implanting. I went ahead and had both tubes removed thinking this was the reason I had been miscarrying. Sadly this has not yet worked for me and I have still miscarried since. Now ivf is the only way for me as I have neither tube. However, they did find a large cyst growing off one of my tubes that I’m so glad is now gone. It gave me constant pain and I just didn’t want it there.

I know the exact feeling your having of ‘maybe I’ll be one of the ones that never had kids’ but I keep going, something keeps driving me on. We have said if our DE package does not work then we will draw a line under it all and we can both accept it then as we have and are literally trying everything we can do we will have no regrets xx

[Kcrochet]

Hi, I don't have experience of this but I just wanted to wish you well and hope you can get some answers and a path forwards soon. You deserve to get your dream and you will get there! xx