Hi Everyone, hope everyone is well as can be....so after a rough year with our 1st ivf cycle ending in a mmc in the summer, I am currently 5wk5d pregnant with our 2nd bfp but I cant help but feel numb and no joy within me. I know it is because I am scared of miscarrying again but I just don't know if things are going in the right direction for me - my first scan is in 2 weeks and it feels like eternity waiting. I had 3 hcg tests, all of which were great in numbers and much better than the first round. Ladies, please tell me, is this normal to feel so numb? What am I supposed to be feeling physically at 5 .5 weeks? What should it feel like to be pregnant? I dont have nausea, just slightly sore boobs, going loo lots from evening and overnight, but it could be due to the meds. I have this fear that I am carrying nothing/fetus that has stopped developing. I asked my nhs gp for another hcg to reassure me and I was told to go and carry on seeing my private clinic as I cant just turn up and expect nhs treatment whilst opting to do ivf with a private clinic. This upset me as I thought it was unfair to say this. We all choose the path that is right for us/suitable for us, whether it be a funded cycle on the nhs or choosing a private clinic.
It was a frozen double embryo transfer again so I am on a lot of meds which means I dont bleed as such so I wouldnt know if something bad was happening. Feeling quite alone at the moment, as this time we chose only to tell my parents and nobody else. How do you ladies cope during this time? I only work term time and 3 days a week so this week is really dragging for me. I am always googling forums but feeling I am losing my mind.
Any advice/support appreciated. Baby dust to you all💕