💔 early miscarriage again

[Leo2017]

Following an early miscarriage July/Aug we took a few weeks out, had a holiday & break from everything!!

To our utter surprise last week - on the morning of our hospital follow up app’mnt for the last cycle - we got out first ever natural positive!! Hospital confirmed it with a HCG of 96 (at 4weeks)!! But sadly today it’s all over once again at 5 weeks with heavy bleeding and cramps!! 😢

Just so broken with it all - that’s a 10wk MMC, and 2 x early (5-6 wk) miscarriages in the space of 6 months!! Not sure how much more we can take!! 💔

our clinic have done recurrent miscarriage blood tests, so we’ll see if anything comes back in those!!

Sorry for another sad post ladies, and really wishing every one of you strength & luck in this tough fight!! xx

[Tugsgirl]

As much as I hate seeing posts on loss because it makes me so sad, don’t apologise. You have nothing to be sorry for. Wishing you the strength to see the days through xx

[Leo2017 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thank you, that’s very kind of you!! Hope you’re doing okay!! Hugs!! xx

[Tugsgirl in reply to Leo2017]

I’m fine xx

[Hidden]

So sorry to read this. Big hugs xxx

[Leo2017 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you!! x

[genten]

So so sorry. No words but thinking of you. Xxx

[Leo2017 in reply to genten]

Thank you! X

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry. please don’t apologise as much it is upsetting ( I get so sad for those going through it) you need an outlet. It’s a dreadful thing to go through once let alone four times you poor thing. 😢 I really hope one of the tests shows something & it’s just a little tweak which will give you your much wanted & deserved rainbow baby. Thinking of you during this difficult time wishing you the strength to get through it xoxo

[Leo2017 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Jess, that’s so kind of you!! I was so pleased to see your news when I came back on here - congratulations!! xx

[Hidden in reply to Leo2017]

Thank you that means a lot ❤️❤️❤️ Keep us all posted 😘xoxo

[Hidden]

So sorry to read this, truly devastating. Thinking of you xx

[Leo2017 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, it’s just so cruel!! xx

[Cinderella5]

Oh Im so sorry, life is so damned cruel! Sending hugs. Look after yourselves!xx

[Leo2017 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you!! Hope you’re doing ok!! xx

[Sprinkles86]

I’m so sorry for your losses, it must be so raw right now. When you’re ready and if nothing comes back from miscarriage testing then have a look at natural killer cells testing. I went to a great clinic for mine after 4 miscarriages, message me if you would like the details xxxx

[Leo2017 in reply to Sprinkles86]

Thank you so much for this, at the moment I’m just at such a loss with what next but I’ll def remember that to ask my clinic - thank you! xx

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi Leo2017. So sorry t read this, and I was pleased to hear that your clinic is following up with investigations into your losses. I do hope you have plenty of support around you just now, as I know you will on here. Thinking of you both and I hope something positive comes from the blood tests. Diane

[Leo2017 in reply to DianeArnold]

Thank you Diane, it’s just all so much in a short space of time!! 😢 xx

[Penders]

Oh hunni I'm so very sorry it's just so heartbreaking. Sending you lots of love and big hugs. ❤️ Xxxx

[Leo2017 in reply to Penders]

Thank you lovely!! Hope you’re doing okay!! xx

[Klndmr]

So sorry hun. Sending you lots of hugs ❤xx

[Leo2017 in reply to Klndmr]

Thank you!! x

[Hidden]

Oh no I am so so sorry to read this. You have been through all this in such a short space of time. Sending you huge hugs. Hopefully the test results will bring some answers xxx

[Leo2017 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much!! I hope so too, no one should have to face this - so very cruel!! xx

[Hidden in reply to Leo2017]

Definitely agree with you on that. Xx

[Hidden]

So very sorry. Thinking of you xx

[Leo2017 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you!! xx

[Binky1983]

Sorry to hear this. It’s such a hard thing to go through. I hope you get some information from the blood tests and that will be the start of your rainbow baby journey! Xx

[Leo2017 in reply to Binky1983]

Thank you!! xx

[Hidden]

So sorry to hear this. I hope you can get to the bottom of why this keeps happening and hopefully prevent it next time. Take good care of yourself. Xx

[Leo2017 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you!! xx

[Caroliono4]

Hi Leo, I'm really sorry to hear your news. I have also suffered 4 losses in a row. I'm glad your clinic has carried out recurrent miscarriage tests - not sure if you are receiving treatment on the NHS but if not you are also eligible for free tests at your local Recurrent Miscarriage Clinic. Theses can include karyoptyping which may help to identify if the miscarriage is due to chromosomal problems and also if you or your partner are a carrier of a faulty gene (I was told this is very rare however I know of ladies on this forum who have experienced this). You should also be offered early reassurance scans and may be eligible for free quad therapy (prog, blood thinners, steroids) to support your next pregnancy. Thinking of you at this horrible time xx

[Leo2017 in reply to Caroliono4]

Thank you so much, this is really helpful!! It’s an NHS clinic and the bloods are being done at the Fertility Clinic as part of follow up from my last NHS cycle!! Our next cycle will be private!! They never mentioned chromosome testing tho, just the bloods!! I wonder should I ask them? Or is it a seperate referral to miscarriage clinic? 🤔xx

[Caroliono4 in reply to Leo2017]

Hello Leo.I asked my local EPU for a referral after I attended for medical management for my second miscarriage (3 are needed for referral if under 40). I would ask your GP or EPU to refer you. Unfortunately I was only offered the couples karyotyping after testing on the tissue identified a chromosome abnormality but I still think it is worth asking for this upfront if the blood tests don't throw up any other issues. I think Tommy's website also has information on the tests you should be offered. Xx

[Emma04]

I’m so sorry to read this, it’s just devastating. Thinking of you xx

[Leo2017 in reply to Emma04]

Thank you!! xx

[Abaco]

I'm so sorry to hear this, this journey is so very cruel and sounds like you've been through an awful lot. Big hugs to you, please lean on the lovely ladies in this group, it will help you get through and please don't apologise, thinking of you xxx

[Leo2017 in reply to Abaco]

Thank you!! You’re right this forum and the ladies are all so supportive- makes a very lonely cruel journey just a little bit less lonely!! xx

[Hidden]

Sorry to hear this! 😘 hope you find some answers with the tests xxx

[Leo2017 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Robb82!! So sorry to read about your loss - heartbroken for you, I’ve been there and had the surgical management 💔 hopefully now you can slowly start to find your strength again!! One day at a time!! Sending luv n hugs!! xx

[Hidden in reply to Leo2017]

Thank you 😘 we surprise ourselves sometimes at how strong us woman are and what we put overselves through! I know I'll get there one day and you will too xxx

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

I’m so sorry for your loss but so glad you’ve already had those recurrent miscarriage tests and hope they give you some answers x

[Leo2017 in reply to Lizzielizzielizzie]

Thank you!! I hope so to!! xx

[Dreamingofbaby]

Oh so sad for u. So sorry. It so unfair indeed. 🤞🤞 u will get there xx

[Mifkipi]

So sorry to be reading this. Sending lots of love your way

[sandra788]

So sorry for what you're going through. I know this is hard. I really understand how you feel. I feel the same way. It hurts so much. My DH & I’ve been trying to have baby for 7yrs. Unfortunately we’re still ttc. We tried clomid, IUI, IVF. When we tried to do IVF my body didn’t response well to the meds. So we ended up doing IUI but no success. Then we did IVF. They gave me other strong meds. I’ve got preg but lost it. I was devastated… I thought that it would be ok at last. When I read you post, it came back again… The pain I had… But knowing that you are not alone in this endeavor gives me a lot of support. Be strong in your faith. We all should be. Talk to your DH about your feelings. I'm sure he will understand the situation. Same thing happened to us (me &DH). Most of men don’t show their emotions. They don’t like to see us going through this. But we have to let out emotions out. We have to vent it somehow. I’m still positive that I'm going to get pregnant again. Hopefully naturally but if we need to do ivf again or use donor eggs, I'll do it. Hang in there. Don’t give up hope. Take care.