Can’t believe I’m writing this… at 12+4 I miscarried and lost our baby. Not only was that horrific enough, but I lost so much blood I almost died. My partner had to witness me with my eyes rolling back in my head and passing in and out of consciousness with blue lips. Needless to say, it was the scariest thing we’ve both ever been through. After emergency surgery to remove the pregnancy, I’m now out the woods and on the mend physically. God knows how long this will take mentally.
We’re taking time out now and have booked 4 breaks/holidays to give us nice things to look forward to. It’s time to put having our baby on the back burner and spend time on us again, making memories and having fun.
But before I go, the burning questions running round my mind…
I stopped all my medication at 12 weeks on the Saturday, miscarried 4 days later. Could I have stopped medication too early and that caused me to miscarry? Could the medication have ‘held off’ the miscarriage? I find it too much of a coincidence that it happened just 4 days later. I had a growing belly and I’d see the heartbeat at 7wks and again at 9wks.
If you’ve read this far, thank you and good luck wherever you are at in your journey. We’ll be back in April/May after a well deserved break in the Caribbean where I’ll be sipping cocktails at 10 in the morning because it is TOTALLY acceptable after what we’ve been through, right?! ❤️💔