Wobble!

[JenKath]

Hi everyone,

I haven’t posted for a while as I have been focusing on getting tests done and our next cycle arranged and that has helped me stay focused. Now all of a sudden I am having a wobble (not just the bloating!)😂

So far we have had a great round, 9 embryos on day 3 making their way to day 5 🤞🤞 and we are booked in for transfer day this Wednesday. I was doing ok and then my SIL gave birth yesterday and now it all feels too much for me. It seems to have pushed me over the edge. I keep running through what they just be doing now and how they are taking their baby home this week. I also feel the looming reality of 3 other friends giving birth this month!

It feels so impossible and unlikely to happen for us this round. I’m also affected by the fact we had a top quality embryo transferred on out first round but still got a BFN and then our frozen embryos didn’t survive the thaw. My mind is saying, ‘well it doesn’t matter how many embryos you have it still won’t work.’

I know I should be grateful (I truly am) that we can even afford this round, never mind still having a few embryos in the running!

Does anyone have any words of wisdom of how I can pick myself back up. I really don’t want to have a completely miserable tww and feel I need to be in a stronger place to deal with the outcome!! I think I would benefit from counselling but my clinic have a waiting list and I didn’t find the first session overly helpful! I had acupuncture today and it always picks me up a little bit I can’t have it several times a day!

Help! 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[beauty1984]

I think everyone has a wobble at some point during all this and it’s only to be expected. The way I coped was to take a step back, I got a bit of distance and took the time I needed to help deal with all the pregnancy announcements/babies. I was really lucky because my family are so supportive and understood that I needed space. I really enjoy walking so my OH and I would go on nice little walks and take our minds of everything. I guess you just need to do what feels right for you, if you need a bit of space then take it.

I really hope your 2ww goes ok 🤞🏻 sending you lots of luck x

[JenKath in reply to beauty1984]

Thank you so much! I love walking too and it is definitely a great way to relax and let go. Maybe I will seek out some new routes to try. I am not working at the moment so I have a lot of time on my own and I sometimes get lost with my own, negative thoughts.

Our anniversary is on Sunday in the 2ww so we have just booked a night away and will go on a nice long walk!

Hope all is going well with you! xx

[Caza2009]

Hey, as you know I have my transfer tomo too so maybe we can try to keep each other sane during the 2WW!

You’re totally entitled to a wobble now and then - this journey is full of ups and downs, but just remember how strong you are to even be on it!

The number of blastos you’ll hopefully have is amazing, but am keeping my fingers firmly crossed for a BFP for you.

Sending loads of love & positive vibes xxxx

Let me know how you get on tomorrow xxx

[JenKath in reply to Caza2009]

Thank you! Will be great to have a tww buddy! I’m not sure how sane I will be haha, but will try! Here’s hoping we manage to have a positive few weeks and outcome! Hope all goes well with you tomorrow too!🤞🤞🙏🏻xx