Going crazy 😏😒😧

[bms12]

I'm not usually a jealous person, honestly o was always rather proud that other people's pregnancies didn't bother me as I knew our time would come. However since misscarrying 2 weeks ago my piano is playing a different tune! Literally been deleting everyone on Facebook/social media with children/babies or who are pregnant (unless we are close and I actually have a relationship with the children) in the last 10 days thsre has been 13 pregnancy announcements. The week before my due date, the week after my due date and then the cherry on the cake today - what would have been my due date. It's so much harder now I've been pregnant to just carry on. I had half a cider yesterday and actually felt guilty?

All I want is to experience being pregnant again and having our healthy rainbow baby however that seems further away now than ever before!

[Em2405]

Hope your ok lovely. It’s hard. Just wanted to know you’re not alone in feeling like this. I know I’ve been irrational when looking at ladies with their bumps and babies. I’m sure it’s normal but still sucks. Sending you big hugs xx

[bms12 in reply to Em2405]

It does.. it's hitting me harder since my miscarriage for sure. All I want is to feel pregnant again! For the 4 short weeks that I knew I was pregnant - it was the best 4 weeks!

[Autumnmoon]

Can only imagine what you are feeling but sure it is very difficult to keep getting battered with all the pregnancy news when your loss is so raw hoping you have lots of love and support and that your dream will also come true x

[MaggieBluee]

I really know how you feel... I had a miscarriage in October last year and since then, having been pregnant, I want it more than ever and find it so much harder not to think about it. I do have good and bad days, more good days I’d even say, but during ‘that’ time of the month, I struggle a lot. My husband says he really sympathies with me but he agrees he doesn’t know exactly how I feel as it wasn’t him being pregnant before.

I do get happy over friends’ pregnancies but then there’s always a little tear in my heart when I hear the news...

One of my close friend’s been TTC for o let a year shorter that we have and she’s now 5 months pregnant. I’m very happy for her but somehow every time I see her, I get really upset (inside of course, I never show it to her), so I have been avoiding her a little bit. I feel awful about it and haven’t told anybody!

Ehhh... I do try to stay hopeful though and know our time will come too! Good luck to you! If you ever want to talk, I’m here for you!

[bms12 in reply to MaggieBluee]

Sorry for the late response, I hadn't seen your message! It is hard. Sometimes I want to through a stop, stomp my feet and scream haha. But that won't help anything so instead I try the breathing techniques, positive thinking etc etc. So etimes I just want to pull a face, stick my tongue out and walk away haha. Good luck and hopefully our time will come sooner rather than later xx

[MaggieBluee in reply to bms12]

Yes, I hope so too! Good luck to you too!

[Littlebird77]

Not you are not going crazy!! It's normal feeling that way. I had a miscarry last August I was 10 weeks. It's a very difficult thing to go through. In my office in the month following we had 3 pregnancy anouncements and my close coleague was due the following month. It was really hard and I felt like a witch for feeling jelous. Everytime was an anouncement couldn't stop crying and people didn't know how to tell me about it. Still hard now. But the pain will get better you'll see. Just try to keep healthy and do some exercice or walking it will make you feel better. Big hug!!

[bms12 in reply to Littlebird77]

It is already easier, I'm quite a rational person and I rationalise all the bad situations. Such as what normal miscarraige rates are and it was probably a chromosome or placental issue, and it was the only time i jave every ovulated successgully where there has been a chance of conceiving so hopefully that's a good sign that we are genetically compatible etc etc. Made my first joke just the other day that we should have known really seeing as I ovulated on April fools day! I find my light at the end of the tunnel through humps (however dark that may be) and keeping busy xx