So I think our little miracle has gone. After a truly awful week after coming home from a beautiful, blissful holiday daydreaming about our Christmas baby we got back to find out we had been broken in too while away, and then a trip to a and e with pain Thursday, then another trip sunday where I was admitted with suspected ectopic due to light bleeding and cramps however our jelly bean was in the right place, heart fluttering away however measuring 11 days behind, thenyesterday morning was our scan at the clinic their heart was still beating however the bleeding was slightly worse. Today comes around and the cramps have been agonising and the bleeding much worse. A panty liner is more than enough to hold it probably all day if I let it. But today I just feel different. I haven't had any pregnancy symptoms in over a week now. Since about the time they are measuring at 5w6days when i should be 7 weeks 5 days today. It's taken 4 years to get here, and now I'm so lost and have no idea what to do with myself or whether I even want to try again. I'm honestly so heartbroken even though thought I'd built at least some resistance and prepared myself to some degree. I just can't stop crying.