I just had a second failed IVF cycle. Today was egg collection day. I had two follicles and neither of them had any eggs.
My first I had one egg and it didn’t fertilise correctly.
I am self funding so this is torture. I have stage IV endometriosis.
I have one cycle left which I have decided I won’t do until a gap. But I am not sure if I will be successful.
Along with the cost, the pain, the journey. It’s absolutely exhausting. I feel so lost and so hurt. I feel so down. I want a baby more than anything. I also know I need to get this treated and have no idea on the extent my disease - as in is it just my ovaries and tubes at the mo. I just feel so upset. I went through a major operation in 2015 just so I could conceive and have no problems removing a fibroid and now this.
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I’m so sorry to hear this. The journey we are on is such a rollercoaster - I never really appreciated how much this takes over your life. Take some time for you and as I’ve been learning it’s ok to feel upset and angry - it’s all very normal. Wishing you the very best of luck on your next steps xxxxx
Thank you - you too just read your posts. Sorry you are going through the same thing. How awful. I am just so tired. I too don’t want to face the world. Have work tomorrow and just don’t want to go.
Is there any way you could not go to work tomorrow? I get you not wanting to face the world - that’s how I’ve felt this weekend. Take care of yourself xxxx
I am so sorry hun i can honestly feel your pain it’s ok to be angry and upset that’s normal we all go through it your a strong women and I prayer to Jesus we all get our miracle today I will keep you in my prayers. 🤗🤗
Thanks Dee I just feel really hurt. I was so happy with two this time. I dunno whether I made the mistake of not taking a gap. But I thought with time running out and having a failed cycle. Maybe I pushed my body too much. I don’t know. Thank you for your prayers.
We are all here to support you, Minchoo. Don’t be hard on yourself. You need the energy to get through each day with a little smile on your face. Go and take a look in the mirror and see what a brave girl you’ve been. You tried your best and you’ll keep fighting on when the time is ready.
If that’s your cat in the profile picture, then go and give him/her a massive hug. Oh and don’t forget your hubby!!!
It’s not my cat but I do have one this one is a close friends. He’s been by my side since I got home. I think he knows how upset I am. Husband came back from work early after heading out after the procedure. Just made me toast. I am going through all the emotions. Thank you for your sweet message. I feel really unwell - especially my right side wasn’t like this with my last cycle. But my right side wasn’t poked before. Last time the anaesthetic really made me feel nothing. Going to take pain killers. If it gets worse will go to A&E
Take the painkillers and put your feet up. Let kitty cat snuggle up with you and give it time. We are all trying our best on this journey. Appreciate the little things in life. There’s some girls who don’t get the chance to get on the fertility road or have fears about it. We have all gone through so much and our bodies need some TLC. Treat yourself, go easy and take your time. XXXXX
No just going relax for a month now. Try to eat right and exercise and pray my body picks up and responds. Will go for my next round in May. Will be considering a 4th cycle now too. Have had that in my mind - since my first failed cycle. Fingers crossed.
I do wish you the best of luck sweetheart. I have been reading your posts. I do hope you get some good news soon. Will keep you in my prayers.
Thank you for the hugs really needed 😘 lots of luck to you too xxxx
Hi Minchoo, i’m so sorry to hear this. I also suffer from severe endometriosis and 2 auto immune diseases. I had surgery last November to treat some of my endometriosis to do my second fresh cycle of ivf. My first one failed, had 3 eggs only from right ovary, as left ovary was not accessible. All fertilised but 1 arrest on day 2 and I was left with 2 eggs. We did a 3 day transfer and the other was not good quality for freezing. I got a BNF. When I saw my fertility doctor, she said the embryologist mentioned egg quality. Therefore, my fertility doctor advised me to take COQ10 150mg(unibiquol), omega 3 1000mg daily. See with your doctor if you take any supplement before trying your last cycle. I can understand how you are feeling. You’re a strong woman. Take care.
Thanks I have noted these. I will be taking lots of supplements before my next cycle. I have a month of supplements, eating right and exercise. Will start today and exercise tomorrow as still feeling very sore from EC
I have an appointment on Wednesday. My iVF clinic advise me to get my eggs froze before I get my endo treated but with two failed cycles I am not feeling confident to go for a third without someone looking at my endo. Will see and will ask to get referred to a BGSE
Yeah I do I am starting to wonder if my follicles realised my eggs early - I do appreciate there is empty follicle syndrome and it does happen. But this was both in left and right ovaries. God knows. Thanks look forward to your message.
I have stage 4 endometriosis. I had to have my left ovary removed. My day 3 FSH was normal but, when I went for my first ivf cycle , I was told I had a very low AMH.
My first cycle 4 follicles 2 eggs one fertilised bfp but miscarried.
Second cycle developed cysts so cancelled.
Third cycle 4 follicles but only one immature egg.
Fourth cycle 4 follicles but ovulated before egg collection.
I took every supplement you can think of including DHEA.
At this point I decided enough was enough. I had spent 2 years on ivf.
My partner was very anti donor eggs but I couldn't keep putting myself through this. So I found a clinic in northern Cyprus that does a tandem cycle. You get stimmed as does the donor.
I got four follicles two eggs one fertilised. That embryo was transferred along with two donor egg embryos.
The two donor egg embryos stuck and are now my 7 year old twins. I also have a 3 year old by another donor.
While I am still sad for the baby I lost I wouldn't change my children for anything.
So please, remember that you have other choices. While it may not be your first choice it can give you the family you want. And sometimes unfortunately ivf doesn't work with own eggs no matter how hard you try.
Sorry to hear that. I know it’s devastating. I just listened to this podcast episode that might provide some insight into treatment for endometriosis: beatinfertility.co/surgical...
Sorry to hear that you're having such a hard time. Nothin ever prepares us for how hard doing IVF, physically or mentally. Im not too sure on your age/AMH. I started treatment when I was 38 with an AMH of 7.19 and didnt do too well which was a bit of a shock. I hadnt really been prepared for this. We did better in our next two cycles after taking DHEA, Ubiquinol is another good one to discuss with your clinic. We have now moved onto treatment with DE as my own eggs are no good which was hard to accept but it gives us a better chance to have a family. Hope your pain settles down, rest up and take it easy!xx
Hi all I am 35, my AMH is only 1.2, it was 4.6 in November but dropped dramatically. Not sure what’s going on. I guess the endo is taking over. I was told after my last cycle not to give up by my doctor that it was still possible, will see. Right now just trying take it easy. Considering DE. Not really sure. But am thinking about it.
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