I just wanted to off load on here. I am due to do my first donor egg cycle in the next month (have done 3 previous failed IVF's with own eggs) and am feeling very emotional.
I feel like I am snapping at my partner a lot and am very defensive and emotional. This isn't like me and I am worried I am going to push my wonderful partner away. He is so supportive and understanding but I feel irritated a lot and this is affecting us.
I was trying to work out why I feel like this and I wonder if there is maybe some resentment to my partner being able to use his sperm, while my body has completley failed me. I obviously want to use his sperm and wouldn't have that any other way, but I am struggling to still get my head around using a donor egg. I am still thinking due to the egg not being mine the baby won't be either, and will I bond and love him/her?? Will I ever feel 100% okay with this next step?
Anyone had any similar thoughts/worries? xx