My test was positive, why aren’t I?

[Princes14]

I tested yesterday at my clinic, the result was positive!

No hesitation, no double checking/one test/one clear result and the first words from the nurses mouth was; ‘congratulations, be sure to book in your 3 week scan!’

Compared to last time, where the nurse did two tests - inconclusive, a week later I had to re test, I was scanned, and well if you’ve read my previous posts you know it ended up an empty sac...

My lovely friend today flung her arms round me in congratulations when I told her, yet still I feel it’s unreal. It’s not happening, or worse still it won’t continue.

Perhaps my holiday will allow me to wind down and relax.

Sorry to be a misery! Wishing you all a hoppy Easter weekend 🐰🐣🍫

[daydreamer89]

I felt exactly the same. That bfp just filled me with a load of worry and everything that happened with my last bfp just came flooding back. I couldn't rest and felt guilty for not feeling excited. I decided to have blood work done which totally eased my mind when it more than doubled so I finally have a bit of excitemet. I think it's perfectly normal to react he way we do..this whole process is nerve wracking. All we can do is take good care of yourself by resting up and eating well lovely. Wishing u a happy and healthy pregnancy and congratulations on your bfp..this is our time ! Xx

[Princes14 in reply to daydreamer89]

Oh daydreamer89, you’ve made my night. Thank you for your kind and encouraging words.

I’m reassured I’m not the only one going through this mental torment. I want this so badly.

Good luck with your journey also xxx

[Tugsgirl]

It’s just self preservation because of what you went through before. Congratulations xx

[emu2016]

This is exactly how I feel I’ll be and already am being and I’ve not started injections yet. You’re protecting yourself. Don’t beat yourself up about it. This is a hard enough process as it is! 😘😘😘 xx

[Newyeae]

Hey this is totally normal. Everyone outside your relationship will be ecstatic and saying yay you should be happy. You've done it etc. But for you, after the struggle to beat the odds and get this far, will be anxious and worried as it could all be taken away. I promise after those first few months it will feel more secure and real. It has taken up to now at 17 weeks pregnant for me to fully relax and believe it will all still be ok x