After struggling emotionally and mentally with our chemical pregnancy nearly three weeks ago I think it's time I started concentrating on looking after myself again. These last few weeks have been tougher than I ever imagined and I'm still quite surprised at how personally I took our first failure.
The amount of anxiety and the way the whole process has seriously knocked my self-esteem and confidence is incredible - to the point where I just sobbed on our stairs last Saturday unable to move as I was sick of sitting on that bloody couch and it felt like a safe place away from the big bad world.
We are booked in for a FET in May/June (the hospital never asked just assumed) and after having a good chat with my extremely patient husband we have decided to postpone to July to allow ourselves to heal and just be 'normal' again.
I've seen such heartache lately on this forum and I genuinely feel so sad for us all, life's a total shitter at times isn't it?
Anyway enough rambling, time to dust myself off, enjoy life again and get ourselves to a good place in life ready for attempt number 2 in the summer.
Big hugs to you all