Infertile yet still get hopes up!

[Elizabeth86]

Today is day 30 of a 28-31 day cycle. I start ivf in January. You’d think by now I’d realise my chances of natural conception are slim to none! So why is it I still get my hopes up?! Ugh!! I usually spot 4 days before my AF. This month nothing so I broke and did 2x tests both BFN (obvs!!). Started spotting tonight and now in the phase of ‘what we’re you thinking??!’ Just me???

[Kyell2]

Nope it’s not just you 😞

I think that there is always a part of us that still lives in hope every month that a miracle can happen. Probably the period hormones playing havoc with your emotions too!

At least you know that next month you can start your IVF journey, hope it all goes well xx

[Elizabeth86 in reply to Kyell2]

I’ve had full on conversation with my body this month like ‘seriously? You choose this month to play mind games with me?’ 🙄

This journey is a constant battle of emotions eh!

Thank you Xx

[Kyell2 in reply to Elizabeth86]

Yep, it’s almost like your body plays mind games with you when you least want it to.

A couple of months ago I told my OH that my period was late and wouldn’t it be funny if I was miraculously pregnant. He looked at me like I was crazy lady and said that given that he doesn’t produce sperm it was be slightly suspicious 😂.

[Elizabeth86 in reply to Kyell2]

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[ClarabGlasgow]

This is me every single month too! And exactly the same with the spotting thing most months - even when that happens I wonder if it could be implantation. Can’t ever give up hope though, think it keeps us going! Good luck in Jan xx

[Elizabeth86 in reply to ClarabGlasgow]

Your message just made me giggle. I’m with you on the believing spotting could be implantation bleeding every month too 🙋🏻‍♀️. Your right got to keep positive and keep the dream alive! Thank you xxx

[ChloBo84]

You’re not alone in this at all honey. I think we all do this in the sheer hope that it will miraculously happen without having to do anything other than what is naturally meant to happen.

And, sometimes it does happen. Never give up hope - hope is all we have sometimes.

I wish you good luck for your ivf cycle honey. Relax, enjoy Christmas, and walk into 2018 with all the positivity you can possibly have ☺️ xx

[Elizabeth86 in reply to ChloBo84]

I think that’s what was getting my hopes up even more this month. The thought I might have been lucky enough to be saved from going through IVF. Need to dust myself off and get positive again. Thank you 😘 xxx

[ChloBo84 in reply to Elizabeth86]

I was exactly the same the month before we started! And I bough pregnancy test and poas and got a bfn and kicked myself for thinking it may have been.

But it’s better to be positive, and hopeful, and optimistic rather than thinking it’s failed even before you know.

Chin up sweetie. Take this ivf cycle with your head held high, knowing you’ve done everything possible to help it along, and then, it’s up to your body to do the rest ☺️ xx

[Waterfall2]

You are not alone. Every month I do that. Even after I start spotting I still think 'maybe it's just really late implantation bleeding'. It's a fine line between staying positive and not getting your hopes up. I think its perfectly OK and natural to do this. Just try and not be too hard on yourself and not get too down if you don't get the results you want. Best of luck for January.

[Elizabeth86 in reply to Waterfall2]

I’m with you on the implantation thoughts! It really is isn’t it? I want to keep positive but that cycle of getting your hopes up and then let down makes it so much harder. I don’t think I can properly ‘go there’ with the fact I can’t conceive naturally whilst keeping positive about ivf. Thanks Hun xxx

[Hidden]

This = me !!! Totally get this same thought pattern every month. 😄

[Emmyeve]

Because It can be done!! It’s positive thinking that helps the mind communicate with the body & then miracles happen! Don’t give up thinking it’s going to happen....and it will! X

[Hidden]

Nope... I always think It month after month!! Hope is the last thing we lose, isn't It? And we are the cool crazy ladies talking to our bodies and our AFs 😂

I remember one month that my partner was away travelling, so we couldn't try, and It was so normal not expecting anything! I knew what was going to happen and felt so sane for a change hehehe. At least we can laugh at these little things! 😁

All the best for the cycle, dear!!!

[Flower_17]

I’m in exactly the same boat, due to start ivf in January and this month I am late been spotting but not a normal period and I just want things to be normal ready for my next appointment in January as I know there is no point in me hoping that I’m pregnant because my OH has very very low sperm and it’s impossible but at the same time you can’t help but hope because I am so tired but no doubt I will get my period soon so not even getting my hopes up. Hope your journey goes well in January and good luck xx

[Elizabeth86 in reply to Flower_17]

I’m the same frustrated that it also doesn’t help me know when next cycle will be to plan for the ivf cycle dates! ☹️ Best of luck xxx

[AS100]

Also me every month!! We are due to have first go at IVF January... I have been hoping wishing praying that I’ll be one of those people who miraculously fall pregnant right before, but last blood test showed I didn’t ovulate this month 😟

Wishing you (& everyone!) all the best for January xxx

[Pip89]

A truly relatable post! My cycles are different each month and I still allow myself to hope and symptom spot even with the ‘less than 1% chance’ we’ve been advised by our doctor of conceiving naturally!

You’re defo not alone sweetie!! X