I haven't posted here much, but basically my husband and I have not formally started TTC yet but we've been having regular unprotected sex for the past 6 months or so but there are lots is problems. I've had endometriosis for almost 20 years (dx 10 years ago). I also have ME, and the doctor suspects PCOS or hypothyroidism (got an appt in a couple of weeks for test results). I know my tubes have been damaged in the past. I'm also on morphine every day for pain. My husband also has Ejaculation Dysfunction and cannot finish during sex, so between the two of us it seems highly unlikely that we will be able to conceive naturally. He wants to wait until we buy a properly to start trying - I want to start trying now because I think it will take some time and we can't get help until we've been trying for a year.
Since I came off the pill, my cycle has been all over the place. Sometimes 4 weeks, sometimes 8 weeks, sometimes in between. Every time I miss a period, I get my hopes up, wait a week or so, do a test which is always negative, and then get depressed. I don't know when or if I'm ovulating - my last cycle was 4 weeks and the two before that were 8, I have a pack of 20 sticks and no idea when to use them! I can't work anymore so can't afford to buy them all the time!
Right now, I'm five weeks since my last period and I've had really sore boobs for a week now. I know it sounds stupid, but I've never really paid attention before to when in my cycle they hurt and for how long. I don't know if it happens when I'm ovulating or when my period is about to start, but I'm sure it doesn't usually last this long.
I can feel my hopes rising again and I'm trying to squash it. There's a lot going on right now - my mums cancer is back, my husband is away as his grandma died, and I definitely don't want to take a test without him here. I know realistically, the chances are miniscule, but that doesn't mean I don't get my hopes up.
I know you can't give me much advice other that "take a test", I guess I just wanted to get it out to people who understand.
Hope you're all as well as possible