I had 3 BFN. I still can not believe it. I had all the symptoms. I took a home test one week before my period. It came out negative. Then when my period did not appear, I made another one. I was very excited. I swear I was 100 percent certain that it would be a BFP. Even my husband also thought about it. But it turns out to be a horrible BFN. I can not explain how terrible I felt.
My period did not appear after the second test. I had to turn to my mom and sisters. My older sister insisted on giving myself a blood test. When she had my first niece, she went through two BFN's until a blood test was done. I clung to that and went to a private lab.
Another damn BFN.
Now my period appeared five days after the last test.
I'm devastated. I feel horrible. I can not believe it. I think I have already lost count of how many BFN I have received so far. Why can things not happen just as they should happen? Having sex and having a baby? Is it not in that order in which it happens?
For worse situation, my mother-in-law heard about my BFN. Before she could say anything, I disconnected all the phones from the house and turned off mine and my husband's. I just want to lock myself in my room and cry while I watch Stranger things or some other shit. I try very hard to stay positive, but it is so difficult. I hate this.