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So sorry

I’m sorry that I haven’t been able to stay pregnant.

I’m sorry that I haven’t been able to make my husband a dad.

I’m sorry that I can’t stomach going to baby showers.

I’m sorry that each pregnancy announcement makes me grasp a bottle of Jack Daniels.

I’m sorry that my heart breaks every time someone asks me if I have kids.

I’m sorry that I can’t afford IVF.

I’m sorry that nothing I’m doing is fixing my infertility.

I’m sorry that my body was only made to kill my children.

I’m sorry that I understand the inclination to steal an infant from a nursery.

I’m sorry that my state makes adoption impossible if you aren’t rich.

I’m sorry that my womb is empty and broken.

I’m sorry that I would pay someone to get pregnant for me.

I’m sorry that I feel so insane about all of this.

I’m sorry that I’ll most likely never be a mom if I stay in Illinois.

I’m sorry that this hurts my husband so much.

I’m sorry that I’m this way.

I’m just….sorry.

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I'm so so sorry you are going through this. Nothing I can say will make it better but you are so strong and you will get through this xxx


I’m sorry to hear this. Sending love and strength xx


You aren't alone xx


There are millions of women in the world who feel and are going through the same as you, don't blame yourself for it, it's how god has chosen to test us.

Nothing in the world can describe how you feel and there's only one person who can help you feel better and that's yourself. Sending loads of hugs to you. Xx

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I am sorry that we can't help but be here to support you in reading your words. 😔🙏🏼❤️ #WeFeelYourPain


This is so deep and painful. It is horrible to feel that way. We do not deserve to apologize for something that is not our fault. I feel identified as I read it. When you go through infertility, you understand despair and pain. We begin to see things from another point of view.

I hope things get better soon. A big hug.

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There will be a light somewhere at the end of the tunnel 🌈 Keep believing in you❤️😘


I’m sorry that infertility makes us feel this way. But you definitely are not alone and I hope from the bottom of my heart that one day this feeling will be gone forever, for all of us. Big hug x


You haven't done anything wrong and you don't have to be sorry. Circumstances have conspired against you and it's just hideous that you have to deal with such deep, agonising pain. The kind of pain that the majority of people will never ever understand. Sending love and strength to you xxx


Hey Diana889 please be strong never give up. Keep trying. Do you know if you go to your GP and ask for help from them and if they refer you to NHS then most likely your IVF treatment will be free of cost depending on your GP and also it depends on the area you live in as some some surgeries offer 3 free attempts and some 2 and some just 1. So go to your GP and consult with them but don't give up plz. I know what you are going through I had one miscarried through IVF but I'm on my second cycle of IVF I have my fingers crossed 🤞 that this time my pregnancy test will be positive. Remember one thing if your GP can fund your IVF treatment then at the first cycle get 2 embryos transferred not one because with 2 embryos you have more success rates than just getting 1 embryo transferred. There are some risks with 2 embryo transferred but stay positive. I hope to hear a good news from you soon. If you need any more help please feel free to ask😊 I will try to help you as much as I can😘


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