A small rant but I need it .....
Tonight I sat around a table with five of my oldest and dearest friends and listened and two simultaneously announced they were expecting whilst the other three who already have kids began to give advice. Now once I congratulated them and gave them a hug I sat in silence for the remainder of the meal just nodding and smiling whilst holding back the flood of tears that was inside. This was their moment and I love them.
When I got home I shut the door and cried for what felt like an eternity. They've all messaged individually as I rushed off claiming a migraine starting but is this the start of a downward decline in my friendship?? I have nothing to contribute to these discussion from here in and I don't want them to tiptoe around me it's not their fault I'm miserable and they can just fall pregnant. My other half told me I should have told them how upset I was - I disagree. They know my situation which is why they chose to tell me to my face but all the same. Sorry for the essay but sometimes I feel better once I've written it down. Does that make any sense?!