I thought long and hard about posting this in light of last night's heated debate. In the end, as you can see, I have decided to post both my good news and a scan pic. The reason being that these are precisely the sorts of posts that kept me going and gave me hope during IVF, OHSS and during the last 12 weeks when I was worried (convinced more like it!) that something was going to go wrong and my BFP would become a BFN. And so far it hasn't gone wrong - I'm very happy to say that my 12-week scan today was all good! To say I'm relieved is an understatement! My husband and I have been together for over 15 years (although not TTC all that time) and this is my first ever pregnancy and I never thought this day would happen.
Infertility hasn't left me even after getting my longed-for BFP. I think it is because of the infertility and years of unsuccessfully trying to get pregnant that I have been excessively worried that this precious and fragile pregnancy would be taken away. I had become so used to the fact we couldn't have children I didn't believe in my heart of hearts that would change. And then of course there was Dr Google, telling me my absence of morning sickness might be a bad sign and informing me about all sorts of slight risks I was convinced were going to become actualities. So far they haven't and fingers crossed they won't!
Of course, the anxiety hasn't left me yet but I've promised myself I'm going to try and relax during this pregnancy a little more and not let infertility ruin my experience of pregnancy too!
I hope this post doesn't upset anyone and perhaps might even give those still going through gruelling rounds of IVF some hope. You probably won't be hearing from me all that often anymore. Especially following the discussion last night I don't feel quite so welcome as I did previously on this forum. But I will be popping in every now and then, not least to see how everyone else is going. Xx