Just wanted to vent as i am going through a crappy time at the minute and i know many of you will know how it feels.
After trying for 7 years we are now at the beginning of the journey with our Group Session due in July. Aside from this i am getting married in October!
Whilst this is helping me take my mind of baby things it has also proven rather stressful. My closest friend who was meant to be MOH has now shown herself in a totally different light.
She is pregnant with her first child, which has been a battle for me itself. i have tried to be really upbeat around her accepting her endless baby photos, collages of scans, etc. When i mentioned anything wedding related she just wasn't bothered.
On my last visit to her after weeks of getting her to try the bridesmaid dress on, she said it was hard being pregnant i just wouldn't understand. That really was a kick in the stomach as she is one of the few people who knew about my struggles and this route. I didn't rise to this but it really upset me.
This morning after getting nothing back from her i said to her she didn;t have to be a bridesmaid if she didn't want to. i had previously asked her 3 times. She replied saying she wasn't up to it and didn;t want to come to the wedding as she didn't feel right for it. It has really been a rollercoaster.
It saddens me how someone can be so selfish, quite happy to let you know of all the good things happening for them but not want to be part of anyone's else happiness.
It's sad as well as i do feel quite alone in this ivf journey.
has anyone had any similar experiences from non supportive friends or family? x