Hi everyone I hope you're all doing well and having a better day than me! I'm the OCP at the moment and due to start my first round of IVF next month and it's all got a bit to much today. Most of the time I feel fine but I find if another form of stress comes into your life it tips you over the edge. I'm meant to be meeting up with a friend this afternoon who has a baby and a 3 year old, but today I feel like I just can't face it. Am I the worst person in the world? I feel awful that I can't face them. I'm a midwife and have to keep my emotions in check every day and I can do it really well, I can remain professional and leave my own fertility issues at the door so I can support my women. But today I just can't face it, I can't face putting on a brave face.
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Having a bad day.
Hi Beechnut1
Don't feel bad, everyone is allowed to have a bad day. We have started our ivf journey 3 weeks ago and today I feel a little bit down and worried as well. Cheer up and try to think positive 
xx
Bless you...beeing a midwife make this fertility journey even harder. Don't feel bad, i have the same feelings when i see pregnant ladies or babies around...it is hard to answer to that bloody question "when will u have a baby" , i am feed up saying not yet and smile, when deep down i know we are trying hard but it's just not happening 😭😭😭😭
Oh gosh I don't know how you keep going, being a midwife! You must be a super-strong lady! You're only human, a bad day (heck several bad days) is allowed xx
You definitely are not the worst person in the world, your a lady going through a really difficult situation!! Your friend will understand!
Give yourself permission, free of guilt, to have time away from things that cause you anxiety, it's called selfish altruism 😘😘 I feel the same at times, life can be a bit like trying to fill a bottle that's already full, the rest spills out the sides! But sometimes there is room to fill it!! Take it as it comes, you are very normal and in good company here!! 😘😘
You're absolutely not the worst person in the world Beechnut, in fact I think you're pretty amazing for doing a job like that and being able to support ladies at their most vulnerable and remaining so professional whilst you have your own pain and upset to deal with. Not being able to face a day like today doesn't make you a bad friend either (because if you're anything like me you can feel like one when you can't face friends) it just makes you human, with a limit to how much you can keep putting a face on and pretending you're ok, or not envious of your friends two children etc etc etc.
There will always be days like this and whilst sometimes you might go and find it's not as bad as you thought it'd be, sometimes it can be worse and you definitely have to listen to your gut and put yourself first. I hope tomorrow is a better day xx
Your obviously a very strong lady doing the job you do and being amazing every day while fighting your own issues. It's totally normal how you feel but just remember you can do it xxx
Thank you all for your very kind words <3 it means a lot! I just explained to my friend why I couldn't make and she was so sweet and offered to bring me over chocolate You are all right I am allowed to have a tearful wobbly day and it's important to just let yourself feel. Hopefully I've got it out of my system ready to bring some gorgeous babies into the world tomorrow. I hope that soon one of those gorgeous babies will be yours and mine! Lots of love xxx
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Definitley allowed down days..sending happy positive thoughts, next month will soon be here x
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