Had a rubbish stressful day at work which didn't help today. I always thought that getting my BFP would make me feel so grateful and happy but its just not working out like that. I'm really struggling with the wait for the scan and any of the symptoms I had around implantation have now gone. I feel vague sickness some of the time but I think thats just nerves.
My HCG was rising really well - from 250 on test day to 650 and then 2700 on Monday but still I can't believe it. Tonight I did a pregnancy test to make myself feel better and now I feel more worried. The 2nd line seemed much fainter than when I tested last week. However, it took a while for the control line to appear so I wonder if the test was dud. I thought by this point the line would appear really quickly and be really strong.
Did any of you find this wait worse than the 2WW.
I feel really ungrateful as so many of you are struggling along through treatment. Thanks for listening to my rantings.