My husband and I have just been through our first ivf after 2 years unsuccessfully ttc. Everything seemed so hopeful, 15 eggs collected, 7 fertilised, 4 made it to day 5 blastocyst. But then my body failed and I came on my period 4 days before testing. The clinic were, well, clinical when I rang up crying and just booked me in for a follow up in a month, month?? They weren't sympathetic-it felt like Just a day job.
I feel so alone. All of my friends who have tried for children conceived easily and naturally and are on to their 2nd, 3rd.
I feel like I am in limbo waiting for my turn for life to change, but it never does. I hate my job, I don't want it to just be endless work, I want to take sick leave but what then.. I have to go back sometime.
I feel terribly sad and lonely. My husband is wonderful my family and friends try to be there but I just feel so low. I don't believe it will ever happen for me and I have no one to talk to who really understands.
So sorry for the depressing post but I just needed to get it out, I just feel hopeless
Thanks for reading x