So all of us on here know full well IVF process is an emotional rollercoaster.
When I was completing stims, I was surprisingly fine, no mood swings, quite happy, my partner was surprised to say the least!
However it’s a month on from failed IVF, and I feel so emotional and really low in mood. Not because it’s failed (I am obviously sad about that but I’ve allowed myself the time to process it) but I just feel completely fed up with life at the moment, I’ve also had spotting when I’m meant to be ovulating and never had that so I wasn’t sure if I was feeling this way purely due to hormones being all over the place.
To be honest, I’m just not a fun person to be around right now and I really don’t know why I feel this way. I feel I’m miserable and my poor partner must be sick of it.
Has anyone else had this after failed transfer? Mood swings, fed up, low mood etc?
Hope your all well x
I am sorry about your failed round, and for how you feel. I wanted to reassure you I think its completely normal. After my failed rounds I always became quite introverted and a bit 'whats the point' about everything, I couldn't shake it. I think its a kind of grief for the lost hope. Like you I thought I was fine and reconciled with it all but the reality was the only time I felt positive was when I was actually in the midst of an IVF round as I felt like I was doing something positive.. it just felt like time wasted and all a bit hopeless at all other times. I am sure its a combination of hormones, grief etc (I once had a call with a therapist who I told I wasn't grieving at all and then she took me through all the emotions involved and it became abundantly clear I thought I was fine and was reconciled with things but the reality was I wasn't!).
Have you had your review appointment? I found I was a bit better after that as it gave me some positives to focus on x
I think you’ve hit the nail on the head when you mentioned that the only time you were happy was during the process of IVF, as I’ve noticed I just dont feel happy until im proactively doing something, stims, tests etc.
i do have a therapy appointment with my partner next week so hoping this will allow me to have a vent too about how I’m feeling!
I didnt get offered a review meeting. Mine is NHS funded but at a private clinic so maybe this is why? I do have my next consultation for next round this week.
Thank you for replying, I hope you are well x