So there we have it another bfn. I long so much for two lines.have never seen them. Have never experienced that initial joy, excitement and today parts of me fear I may never experience this. However if I dig deep in my heart of hearts i do feel my fabulous husband and I are destined to have a baby. I see a future for us that involves a beautiful, sought after and precious child. I have to feel this and beleive this. I had moments this morning as we all do where I said things like..what did I do in a past life wrong, we do not deserve this etc etc however sadly I have been here before and these feelings and anger will get me nowhere. I see us at a cross roads and left Is depression, a strained marriage, a longing for what I don't have, upset and anger then right is hope, happiness, laughter, appreciating my health, my fabulous dh, wonderful family and friends, laughter, spring and all the fabulous things in life. I will not allow myself to stop believing we will one day get those lines however for us our baby is just not ready to meet us yet clearly my dh and I Have to have much more fun and laughter just the two of us as I am turning right at the cross roads. I will not obsess anymore (well at least try not too - yes you heard it here first) and aim to enjoy life and all I have right now. Our cycle this time was much more successful to a degree so for that maybe we are the 3rd time lucky couple who knows. You ladies on here are an inspiration and a tower of strength. to all bfps I am so happy for you all especially given what you have been through and for those still struggling on this journey I totally am with you and here for advice and support anytime. Now I am most certainly not having the decalcolised wine tonight but will hang onto it just in case. Much love to you all and thanks for all your support this cycle xxxxxxxx
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